Day 95 Part B

So I definitely blew what I was suppose to do today. Still gonna do this damn paper, but poetry is out the window due to family bullshit. I was at the poetry place waiting til we started and had to come home, out of frustration had a piece of cake and ate dinner. Still gonna exercise tonight, but I'm so irritated. Trying to focus on Blerdcon. Trying. FML.

Day 95 Part A

Hello Kingdom of Lot,

So this morning, I woke up with a hurting eye, and I gained a pound. I am 259 due to the junk I had yesterday at Virginia Union University. I did exercise last night as well, however, what I eat is just as important. I feel okay in the sense of the word but I'm ready for tonight's exercise regimen. I added 10 dips and til next Friday, I have to do 5 sets of each instead of 4, but it will only be 10 dips...and of course I added burpees, i want to get them down. Until next post...

Dsy 94 Part B

 Just got off work Lot citizens and I'm tired. Gonna work out, bc it'll be worth it when I wake up. Be safe.

Day 94 Part A

Good morning citizens in the kingdom of Lot,

So...this morning I woke up (on 4 hours of sleep) with red eyes...I was just so out of it I didn't give a care about nothing this morning. Since we decided to wait another hour before leaving, since we missed the 7 am mark, I gladly laid back down. 4 hour earlier I went on my porch, did my "so called" warm up for my arms, stretched them and my torso, and did 4 quick variations with my weights. I weighed 257.2 pounds this morning. I don't feel too believable about the weight today, but again, not really worried about it, excited that I'm losing minimal weight each day anyway. By the time Blerdcon roll around, and I've been working every night like I'm suppose to, I should be less than 230...can't wait.

Today I'm going to my sister's college (VUU) to see Nikki Giovanni. My sister is doing a presentation today so this will be cool. Come home and nap, and then I might post again.

Day 93

So I'm in a bit of a hurry, but I got my car, there's some bs that happened today, but it'll sort itself out by the time the weekend is over. Gonna exercise when I get back and um, weight myself in the morning...oh yeah, this morning i weighed 258.8, exciting isn't it? Well, till morrow, be safe and good night!!

Day 92 Part B

So its extremely late, and I don't feel like delving into all the details, but I'm going to exercise and then head to bed. Will post tomorrow, hopefully after I get my car. Good night!

Day 92 Part A

So Lot citizens, I'm just so irritated. Hate the way things work. I get my car tomorrow, hopefully, tried to look up a house for fam, found out it ain't rent-to-own, thanks to a scam website, and my niece and nephew getting on my nerve. I'm supposed to be at work right now, but said I would be late until their dad got here. And couldn't nap.

On a positive note, I'm 260 lbs even...I'll be under within the next 2 days I'm sure. Not so productive either. I got some clothes for the homeless, but was not able to start my homework, so I'll do it tonight after I workout. I just want a day to myself where I don't have to do nothing for no one, or watch the kids, and find a fucking house. If anyone know a rent-to-own site or person who does it, let me know.

Day 91

So i just exercised, better late than never. But I like exercising at night. It's invigorating, especially after dealing with work. Also, the area around my knee did not agree with me jogging, and I know jump squats was out of the question (no resting in between days) so I improvised. Did 32 count punches with the 5lb weights, did my regular 32 count over chest with the 5lb weights, and did 32 count leg lifts. Excited, didn't sweat, but definitely feel the burn. Gonna drink this bottle of water, shower, set my hair for the evening and watch some more Naruto. Good night people...trying to stay scrong...yes I mean scrong!!

Day 90 Part B

Hello Kingdom people,

     Well, did productive stuff, paid on some medical bills, exercised, watched Once Upon a Time (gonna watch the newest one then I'll be caught up) and calibrated my controller to play online. If anyone knows a site that I can play games on besides those connected to 8bbit and snesfun, please let me know. I miss old games all the time and my favorite to play is Samarai Shodown, Mario of course, and a few others. Well, gonna chill on that, and yeah, have fun people. I will try and weigh myself tomorrow. Good night!

Day 89 and Day 90 Part A

Day 89
     Did not get to workout today. Worked like a Hebrew Slave to get that hw done. Lesson learned, do all hw on Wednesday and finish up on Friday!

Day 90 Part A
     So productive days is working out. More happy. I thought to be honest this morning and weighed myself. I haven't been totally right, but have been trying. I weigh 262.6 lbs and I'm proud, because that means I'm 5 pounds away from my lowest weight this month of 257.6 lbs. Yay. So today, since I haven't been doing the burpees, I'm going to add them to the warm up, so until Friday my workout should look like this:

Warm Up:
-6x around driveway jog
-8 reps novice burpee
-50 jumping jacks

Stretch

Workout (4x):
-8 jump squats
-8 leg lifts
-8 dumbell lifts across chest (5lb)
-8 leg kicks (each leg)

Day 88 Part B

I know it's late, but I just wanted yall to know, I order Deidara's wig and headband, did my outline, about to add at least 1 paragraph...and then go to sleep...if I don't wash my hair first. Good night.

Day 88 Part A

Hello my Kingdom people,

So again, I said I wouldn't have bad or good days, but productive days. Yesterday I got home from work (which is for an entirely different post), got home, had some sun chips since I didn't eat at work, stayed up to let it digest, played some PVZ, then went to sleep. Today I bought some shampoo (Shea Moisture, cheap at family dollar), bought me a work out jacket (from family dollar as well), and just did my workout in the rain. Interesting how the rain makes good resistance. Anywho, I did the workout, but instead of doing it 4 times, I doubled it up, so 8 reps of each twice, and of course I did my walk around the driveway and my 50 jumping jacks. Did I mention I bought thin socks from family dollar so my feet would be comfortable in my tennis shoes? LOL. Well, gonna get dinner after I order Deidara stuff and work on my paper some more before heading out to poetry. So far, I say it's been a productive day.

Day 87 Part B

Before I take this shower and do my new face and hair regimen, I have gots to tell yall, THAT WAS THE MOST PRODUCTIVE HARD-SWEATING WORKOUT EVAR!!

So this is what I did...

Warm Up
-6 times around driveway jogging
-50 fast jumping jacks (did it to Skrillex and Rick Ross-Purple Lambourghini)

Stretched for 3 minutes

Workout (4x)
-8 jump squats
-8 leg lifts
-8 dumbell lifts across chest (while laying on porch-5 lb weights)
-8 leg kicks (per leg)

Stretched for 3 minutes

OMG, the sweat!!!!

Day 86 and 87 Part 1

Day 86
     Yesterday was great, until bs happened. Ate stuff I won't suppose to. Made meatloaf for dinner. All the bs had led to me today...

Day 87 Part A
      Got up with a new revelation. Since anger and frustration cause me to not do my diet right, I decided that when I get mad at someone, I'll put on my shoes and simply go outside. Do a few loops around the yard driveway. Better to lose a calorie or 2 than gain it eating away my problems. I also am going to buy my Deidara wig today. Decided that after I do the workout regimen I made, I would buy it. Got up this morning, ate my jelly, straightened up my room, swept the house, wiped off stuff, and I'm already dressed in my workout clothes. Afterwards, will start on my homework due Sunday, so I can be free!! And, today will start a new face regimen and hair regimen. Will post pics of products later. A week from now, if I'm under 255, I'll invest in Garnet's leggings and tshirt. For the next four weeks, no breaks on the weekend. Not gonna say I'ma have a good day, but will say it will be a productive day...good days bring bad days, but productive days still mean stuff got done.

Day 85

I definitely had a depressing type of day. Watched Naruto, went back and watched when he met his parents for the first time, watch some youtube vids, went to work, wanted to scream and smack people, bought food from Cookout, got home, dropped my milkshake on the porch, and now I'm making this post. Tomorrow morning, first thing I'm a do is workout, before I eat or watch anime.

Day 84

So, I didn't exercise today due to the fact my cousin and I went and looked at a car. It was great, needs a little more work with inspection, and with my cousin doing general maintenance after, it'll be awesome...this evening I had an accident with my dad's car. Nothing too serious, but thanks to the girl stopping a cop, court is involved and I can possibly have a "failure to yield" crap on my record. If I pay the ticket, I admit to guilt. Fuck life...why do I deserve this??? What the fuck did I do???

I've been in my room since 5. It's now almost 12. Dad patted my leg and said "let it go, it can be fixed, you are not hurt."

Day 81, 82, and 83

Hello people and hope your holiday (if you celebrate or not) was splendid. It's been a few days so let me get the ball rolling. Saturday (day 81) consisted of me going to church (S.D.A. church, just look it up) something I haven't done in a while, getting food from my bro to give to the homeless, a friend of a friend passed on a few dollars just because, which paid for the 2 cases of water I wanted to give to the homeless, met up with a friend to pass out the stuff, did poetry workshop (i wrote one of the hypest stories that everyone liked, and got shocked by an owl on my porch. Twas a good day.

Sunday (day 82) consisted of my lazy ass working all day on a 3 page paper. Got it done, did my discussion posts, binge listened on youtube to songs of Eureka 7 and the like (that's one of my fav shows, you gotta watch it) and ate good. No i didn't work out saturday nor sunday, but more on that in a few. Did I mention this was my first Sunday off in ages?

Today was pretty blah. Had to take people places, helped ma in the kitchen, worked out before and during the awesome spring thunder storm, pretty much ate well. Had a smoothie (below) which consisted of apples, honeydew melon, pineapple, banana, water, lemon juice, and cayenne pepper, and a chicken wrap with kale and honey mustard...and a few pieces of croutons...i needed the crunch since I had no veggie chips. Pretty good day. Looking forward to tomorrow. Suppose to see about this car. Please pray it goes well. Taking my mechanic cousin with me. Till then, stay positive!!!!

Day 80

Hello,

     I exercised today. Took my supplements and ate a wrap. So far so good. I believe next Saturday I'll be able to buy all the cosplay stuff on ebay/amazon. Feeling good and tired, so ima nap before work. Btw, no lemon water today, maybe tomorrow.

    Also, I'm looking for exercise ideas. If anyone has any let me know. Found out today that a hard repetition of jumping jacks kills my feet. Who knew. I'll stick to 50 jumping jacks from now on, until I figure out how to do otherwise. Jumping squats are hot and leg lifts are still okay. Do want to replace push ups for a while, so if anyone has any ideas, please let me know. Be safe and healthy!!!

Day 79

Hello Lot Citizens,

     So today was off to a drag...until I finally came upon a 2003 Chevy. OMG, i was so delighted I told my cousin could he come with me to look at it next week and he said "yes!" Another good point, the person who owns the car said someone was supposed to buy it at 5:30 and they never showed. OMG, so excited, I know it's not mine yet, but I have hope. Please hope and pray for me that I get it because I am back on my exercise and food schedule tomorrow!! So yes, we are back to Garnet, Deidara, and Nagisa...might wait on Nagisa, not sure yet.

     Since I'm in the mood for getting back on schedule I decided to do differently this time. For exercise I'll jog for 60 seconds straight without stopping and then I'll do a pattern of 25 jumping jacks and 5 push ups, 5 leg lifts, and 5 squats until I get tired. I need to do full blast...

     Btw, will research lemon water and post about them. Be safe out there and happy spring!

Day 78

I definitely wanted to blog earlier but didn't know what to particularly say. Last night, (don't know if I said this or not) but my moms talked to my dad about the car while I was at work last night. Of course when I get off, he's sleep from work during the day. In a nutshell he said rent a vehicle. I told my mom it was gonna be bs, that's why I rented last time instead of asking. My middle sister was in disbelief. I'm just so mad. There's nothing I can do at this point, unless I get a car less than 500 bucks (online, it's possible) or a car drops out the sky. My next plan was to put money down and pay monthly but that's not working out in my favor either...guess I'll watch some Naruto and Steven Universe.

Day 77 Part B

So my mom believes that I should be able to just take the car for the weekend that I want to go...I don't very much like that idea, but I am starting to consider it. We shall see. Also, I believe I have re-found my motivation...Grimmjow...my favorite from Bleach. Still not happy about the circumstances, however, I refuse to regain the weight I just lost. Good night Lot citizens!!

Day 77 Part A

Hello Lot citizens,

So i woke up this morning with a very sad heart. For the past 2 and a half months my motivation has been my health yes, but the immediate satisfaction of the summer anime conventions really had me reved up and extremely motivated me because I have never had perfect cosplays that I wanted, and now that I've no way to get a car this week, I feel it's over and no one seems to understand me. Even my cousin, who works at a dealership, is looking for me, and I feel he won't find one in time. So that's that.
I ate chicken and had a smoothie today so I haven't eaten badly but I've had no motivation to go out and exercise this morning. Btw, my bro's sister in law decided she didn't want to sell her car. I had to text him this morning to find out since he hadn't talked to me since Saturday. That irritates me. It's all irritating me. Well, gonna play some pvz2, work on something for my father, and take a nap before work. Hope everyone else is having a better day than I.

Day 76 Part B

Hello Lot citizens,

Well, as mentioned before, not mad it didn't go as planned. I did have 2 smoothies in mason jars today, i ran around the yard with my nephew, so I did exercise, but I ate due to headache and forgetting to take other pills I needed to take today. Did I mention cake?? No worries I'm ready for tomorrow. Also, as of midnight I am done planning for blerdcon...so now, what is my motivation...for real? Yeah I want to fit into an Xlarge, but what can I really do.

For now, I'll just enjoy the night I guess. Downloaded Plants vs Zombies 2 for the phone and about to hop on it. Also I plan to pass out homeless stuffs on Saturday with ppl from a facebook group i'll explain about tomorrow. Hope that at least my homeless project comes together for me this summer. Be safe, and hopefully stay motivated, good night.

Day 76 Part A

Good morning ppl in the Kingdom of Lot,

Today I am to start my exercise week once again. I decided i will weigh myself today, wednesday and friday. Because of what I ate over the weekend, my starting weight this week is 261.8. Water and burning calories is key, soooo on to exercise which will consists of 2 minute jog for warm up, stretch, 50 jumping jacks, 10 pushups, 45 jumping jacks, 9 pushups, 40 jumping jacks, 8 pushups, etc, and I want to initiate a huge fruit and vegetable non milk based smoothie at 12 noon and one at 8 in the evening with a snack in between, this way I'll get all the nutrients and vitamins I'm supposed to get throughout the day.

Will I be 250 by Friday...I would like this but if not, then at least I would have lost a little more weight than last week. My motivation is not really cosplay. Why you ask??? I decided that if I don't get a car or vehicle of some sort this week, I will not be going to Blerdcon, therefore I'm not getting my hopes up over nothing happening. Sick of this failure. Came so fucking close to getting a ride and it blew up in my face, so my motivation is just being able to wear an XL.

Will this week be perfect, no, it won't, because everyone's schedule in this house interferes with my own. Therefore if there is a day I can't do like I want, I won't be mad, but I will have to substitute a day on the weekend to make up for days lost during the week. Here's to going to war with fuckery this week and coming out on top!!!!

BTW, the smoothie idea came from this vid I saw and I was like OMG, yall are gonna like this!!
https://www.facebook.com/littlethingscom/videos/765102557032452/

Day 75

So i went to work, went to the mall, bought two shirts, did my hw, finished my posts, did a haiku and now I'm enjoying Vsauce...oh you don't know who that is, I suggest you watch in the evening...yes I know I'm posting late, it's been a long day. Will update later, good night!

Day 74 Part B

Had a great day, marvelous. The only thing that didn't go great was getting to see the vehicle I was talking to my bro about. Seems like tag with his fam is what is occurring. Conclusion, no seeing the car today, meaning I have no car, meaning i could not buy cosplay stuff, nor apply to get registered for blerdcon. I have a short paper to do and I'm quite irritated and upset about it. After the paper, I'll watch Naruto, eat my ice cream and wallow in my small anger. I made an agreement with myself that if I couldn't get a car to go to the cons this year, I'll take my tax money and get a ps4. Looks like I'll be getting a ps4 in a few weeks. As for losing weight, teh con was my main motivation. Even though losing weight will look good for my health anyway...I'm pretty sure yall know where I'm going with this. I go back to my regimen monday morning and I'll tell yall tomorrow how I'll change it up. Yall have a good night.

Day 74 Part A

Hello Lot citizens,

So I'm kinda disappointed in myself a bit, I'm not mad, I just didn't put up as much effort as I know I should have. I don't even feel like putting up a pic. I now weigh 257.6 which means I lost about 3 pounds since I last weighed myself...so from now on I will weigh myself more often. I will try on some more clothes today though and I will enjoy my weekend. I think watching Naruto Shippuden, the sunshine, my day off, and the fact that I may be getting a car soon has put me in a good mood. I'll post throughout the day, and thanks to all the new followers who are motivating me to keep going!! Next goal is to get to 240 by the end of the month!!

Day 73

 Hello ppl in the kingdom of lot, I have had an up and down type of day. I did a phenomenal workout. 50 jumping jacks without stopping, walk/jog, and did push ups, squats, and leg lifts from a rep of 10 all the way to one, had sun chips (I think too many) and two wraps today. Bought from gamestop on sale shirts after giving two homeless ppl $15 starbucks giftcards, and bought some stuff from my job to give away. Cant wait til tomorrow at noon boi!! Omw home, be safe out there and good night!!

Day 72 Part D

So just when the world is going to end I belueve the second job will get me two clienrs, up pay, and my poet bro sister in law got a car for 500...big leap out the 360 of darkness. Good night people in the kingdom of lot.

Day 72 Part C

So just when I thought I was making myself feel better about today, and after buying KH 2.8, along with steven universe mini boxes, my sister and my mom and me head to check on this Hyundai Tucson I've had my eye on for the last week or so. Lady tell me I'd most likely have to put half of it down...my life got destroyed right then and there. Idk about everyone else's finances but I can't do it.

Yall don't know...I complain a good amount of the time and I know there's stuff I can't do and stuff I'm able to do, but I feel so stuck at home. I drive a car with my dad's name on it, I'm trying to get into my field, I give to others, what more does life want from me? I feel in order to get things really going, I'm going to have to volunteer, if the "supposed" second job don't get me a client by next month and take a job making minimum wage to only save, bc I'm sick of this. I may have to also break down and get a car when I wanted an suv. Hope everyone else is still having a good day.

Day 72 Part B

So now that I've cried in teh car and re-evaluated how today will go, I think I'll get over today. I did my homework, swept the floors, put stuff in the washer, and now all that's left is to wait. Since my exercise bras are in the wash, I will exercise around 7, before dinner, that way my metabolism will be high. I need to take my thyroid medicines and I guess catch up on Naruto since a certain someone spoiled a future event for me. I hate that shit so much.

Theme music for today will be kingdom hearts, cleaned to Dismiss in Birth by Sleep, which I still have playing, I love it so much, it just ties everything together. Hope everyone else is having a good day...

Day 72 Part A

My day has already gotten off on the wrong foot. Nephew woke me up before my alarm, again. Had to cancel my interview, and I just feel so disappointed in life right now. The lady will see if she can reschedule me, but I wanted to get the job...TODAY!!!! I'm so sick of having no car of my own, not being in my fucking field, and don't even feel like eating...

Day 71 Part B

Hello good people in the Kingdom of Lot,
     So i'm finally home, dusty from sweeping at the store, but good. I'm tired, I know that...oh by the way, my work out earlier consisted of me doing 4 pushups on each step and in between I alternated between doing 4 squats and 4 leg lifts, so I believed I did 20 push ups, 12 squats and 8 leg lifts...I gonna believe those numbers lol. Also I have an interview tomorrow so pray that goes well for me and I have training at my "supposed" 2nd job. Hoping it all works out...now if you all in the kingdom excuse me, i need a serious shower to rinse off all the crap from today. Two days bruh...two days, and I'm hella excited. Be safe out there, pollen is here, let the battle begin...

Day 71 Part A

Today has not been the "greatest" day. I'll try to compress the majority of my day: nephew work me up at 8 (i didn't have enough sleep, for me, resulting in my left eye hurting), went to store and bought juice for the house, then my mom needed to go to the bank, came back, had to charge phone bc it died, sister needed to go to school at 1, so did a short version of my workout in about 10 minutes (i'll explain later), her ass wasn't even ready till 12:50 which meant i could have did my whole workout, was supposed to do my blog, but had to go to the store to get other stuff, came home with my sister, did some parole stuff for my brother (he made parole in feb, but we trying to figure when he suppose to come out since he's already done his classes at three institutions) which is irritating, and I ate a mini salad after my workout and a mini lunch just now. That lunch consisted of half a wrap of peanut butter, organic jelly, and sun chips. This has not been the best day. The only thing that made me a lil happy is the fact that I bought a new salad dressing (pic below). It's the shit, of course, but other than that, crappy ass day. Still looking for that 248 saturday at 12 noon. Might have to do some jumping jacks when I leave work tonight and do some stretches.

Day 70 Part B

I'm home from work, did my April 4th poem, and I'm about seeing if I can do LVL 1 kingdom hearts II final mix and watch some more Naruto Shippuden. I did eat KND bars at 11 due to how busy we were at work (no breaks), so I have to usually wait 4 hours before bedtime, but I'll settle for three. Which means 2 am and then wake up at 8:30 to get the ball rolling. Other than that, I felt a change in my work jeans. I'm excited (does girly giddy jumping up and down and hand clap). Saturday I'll get on facebook and say how much I've lost and then do it again a month later. I keep adding motivation and not gonna stop til I'm 180...Nagisa, Garnet, and Deidara, Saturday is coming!! Good night!!

Day 70 Part A

Hello great people in the Kingdom of Lot,

Today I did what I was supposed to and now I'm trying to enjoy my lunch if I can stop being interrupted. I am caught up on OUAT (bruh, so happy he finally told her!!!!!!!!!!!!) Anyway, I can tast the 248. I did my 50 jumping jacks, 10-15 minute walk/jog, and added another rep to push ups, squats, and leg lifts...now on to finishing my second mini breakfast wrap and lemon water. Toodles!!

P.S. Blerdcon is coming!!

Day 69 Part B

Today has been quite the day. Everything went well. I can definitely attest to too much dinner, but other than that, I've done well. I've even written my poem for today. I wanted to start homework today but I guess I'll do it tomorrow. Also, I'm catching up on OUAT since I keep seeing the pics in my tumblr, lol. Currently on episode 14 and i might get to watch 15 tonight, if not, I'll just keep replaying Birth By Sleep soundtrack. I'm listening to Dismiss right now. Also, I can taste my vehicle right now. It's in the palm of my hands. Weight loss motivation and a car, let's go! Good night!

Day 69 Part A

Hello people in the Kingdom of Lot,

I'm starting to like that phrase...anywho, today is the power start of my goal to 248!!!! I got up, did all I was suppose to, exercised, ate lunch, and am about to take my thyroid meds.

So for exercise this is my regimen:

1. 50 jumping jacks

2. walk-jog 10-15 minutes

3. countdown from 6+ for each exercise (push up, squats, leg lifts)

Specifically for the countdown it'll be 6 push ups, 6 squats, 6 leg lifts, 5 push ups, etc, and will increase by one each day until Saturday. So in all, by Friday, I'll start by a count of 10 and work my way down and I'm working on jogging longer. With my S.T.A.R. Labs hoodie, lemon water, tennis shoes, and fitness gloves, I will make it toward 248. Here I come Garnet, Deidara, and Nagisa!!

Day 68

Hello citizens of the Kingdom of Lot...I'm trying to find my niche here, so bare with me...

I'm am so m**f**kin pumped for this week. NO EXCUSES BABY!! Trying to hit the 248 mark and then I can buy cosplay stuffs and hotel stuffs and car stuffs. Before i get into that, there's something I wanted to get out...

So yesterday at poetry night I heard one of the members say she is single at this point in time to work on herself. You don't want to be with someone and still be up against your own insecurities, which I totally agree with, and that brings me to this point: I want to be happy with myself so that "we" (whoever that may be) can be happy together. I will be carrying that as a momento to myself while on this journey.

So now that the lovey dovey stuff is said, I am HYPED to work my ass off this week. Garnet, Deidara, and Nagisa and you guys are my motivation to get thru this...and I start grad school tomorrow...so I'm m**f**kin ready!!

Day 67

Hello,

    It is the first official day of National Poetry Month!! I finally was able to bring my youngest sibling to saturday night Slam Richmond poetry. It went well. Btw, the goal of National Poetry Month is to write a poem for every day of the month, so if you are up to the challenge, DO IT!!

    I am going to Blerdcon this summer and I have officialized my cosplay line up as Garnet, Deidara, Nagisa, and Nagisa's rave outfit  (Assassination Classroom). OMG, I'm so excited. Also, this week I pray hard that I will have a SUV named...idk, probably Hitsugaya or some other cool dude anime character I love and I will post pics if I do. I'm so excited I need to get ready to chill for the night. Have fun in this nightly weather we're having, stay wary of the pollen floating about, and have a good night!!