Day 238 and 239

Day before yesterday i decided time to go back to what i originally wanted to do. Long story short, because i got to go to work, i was watching a youtuber named Jax going over workouts from Dragonball and Naruto and I had already watched One Punch Man. Again, long story short decided to do One Punch Man again, cut my eating, and drink more water. Yesterday did 10 squats, 10 situps, adn 10 knee pushups. Did 8000 steps (below) and now am 261. Today i just finished doing 20 of each adn will see if i can make minimum 5000 steps. Here's to less than 261 permanently.

Day 237

Morning of day 237 I thought i weighed 270, but weighed 264.5. Did dancing and cardio this evening which made me happy, but since i didn't drink enough water throughout the day i got tired quicker. I finished until midnight like i was suppose to though. Been watching naruto stuffs on youtube and this dude named Jax on youtube who likes breaking down anime workout. love it. Anywho, got work in teh morning so more on workout out and possibly fasting (with water) to bring in the new year. I needs to be down even if im not doing katsu...and then there's teh wedding. Be safe, make new years goals, and stay motivated.

Days 232, 233, 234, 235, and 236

I could have posted days ago, but decided not too...

...Hey ppl, hope you guys are still enjoying the holidays. Christmas (research this holiday pleeease) I hope was pleasant for you guys, i hope Hanukkah was good, AND we are in the middle of Kwanzaa. I'll explain Kwanzaa later.

Remade my hair cream, probably gained a pound or two these past 4 days from holiday food, and I'm rocking Brawlhalla as well as played some on my ps3. I played Final Fantasy 10 (my favorite of the bunch) and will start Assassin's Creed tomorrow.

I looked up some DDR stuff (which will take up a whole post) and definitly want to get back into playing.  Might see if I can play on my computer if not buy for the ps3 and ps4.

It is time for bed, so, i hope to get back on later. Be safe, reach for your new year goals, and be safe. Good night!!

Days 329, 330, and 331

Hello. I'm up, tired, and looking up jobs lol. But into the info, i gained weight, but I have fixed it and nipped it in teh bud. Did better eating today then the last 2 days. I also did kickboxing on the morning of day 329 and played basketball at my youth counseling job. So i'm excited that my counseling job with the young teens will be healthy as well.

Been doing dancing at night and looking into cardio moves to incorporate. Also, been looking into the medical field...again...and im really getting tired of this now. If people don't have what i want, answer the phone when i call, or the price i want, within reason of what im looking for, i need to revamp and make new medical/back up job goals.

The car issue is my main motherfucking problem. I straight told myself i can't wait to get this vehicle that cost about $3000. I didn't ask my godmother the question i should have asked about helping me "buy" a car because im sick of asking for help from people in general when i have all these damn jobs. At the beginning of the month i will mention it again the right way to her but im hoping i can just do it myself.

Finally, let me get a job that help me make at least $14 at 15 to 25 hours a week to help me get rid of my retail job and administrative asst job. I will be happy as hell. Waiting another week to see if the federal job i applied for say anything. I know they received it but they haven't said anything else. Oh well, time for bed. Be safe, reach for your goals, and stay motivated.

Days 325, 326, 327, and 328

Hello ppls. Since the 15th, or the 324th post of this blog, i have been on this adventure. For one, as of yesterday i went from 267 to 261.9 and got damn proud of myself. Eat 2 or 3 times a day, by 6pm i'm at my retail job, and i get home by like 1 or 2 AM and them i would have drank maybe 2 bottles of water and counted my steps on my samsung app, gaining over 4000 - 5000 steps. So I'm excited about that. Also, I started my Youth Counselor job on sunday and did 10 hours. Twas interesting. More on it later. Last week, if I have not mentioned it, I have accrued (is that the right word, lol) 42 hours last week AND 8 hours already this week. Took a break today. Tomorrow i'm hoping to add 10 hours for a full 60 hour paycheck. For some of yall that may not be as exciting but I'm fucking excited. My admin. assist. job i think i will make come to an end in mid january. Trying to add doing this office training and going to GMU for a seminar onto my career portfolio as well as ask for a recommendation for future use...or getting a doctorate. It'll come to me when i make the final decision. It's unreliable in need of paying for my shit when i need to pay for stuff. So...mid january i hope to be done with it.

On a goals note, I hope to be 250 (or by great blessing 248) by the end of teh month. Meaning i jsut need to lose 20 lbs before my colleagues' wedding day january 20th. Oh yes, I was allowed to bring my plus one, which is my potential boyfriend. BTW, done a lot of thinking about it and even though he hasn't contacted me as much as ive contacted him, he said he was honored he was allowed to come and that made me happy. He never complains about the stuff i complain about (such as life) and seems to really love my plans of "trying" to get into teh medical field. I mean I became a youth counselor and finished my masters, as my goals for this year. Next goal is phlebotomy and it's been rough as i don't have the funds, but him was supportive in my understanding. I'm in a good place right now...and there is my nephew crying, well more tomorrow. Stay motivated and be safe. GN!

Day 323 and 324

I'm so fucking irritated. It's the last day to get health insurance, which I can't because I have no money, i forgot to pay my current insurance which ends at the end of the month anyway, I'm broke, I am an employee under 4 mother fucking jobs and only working 2 of them, 1 i start tomorrow, and 1 i'm inactive because i can't drive and they didn't find me a client to work with. Tried to talk to my mother and it felt like she was blowing me off. I just want a car to work extra if i want and leave when i want. And my youngest sister should have been working to help out. I feel so broken right now, don't want to ask my godmother for help, and went up a pound.

I know i'll get paid well in january but i'm technically broke til then. I don't even celebrate Christmas but do like giving gifts, getting stuff for the homeless, and celebrating Kwanzaa. When i get paid I really don't know how im going to budget it. Might just buy me juice and alcohol and spend the entire holiday week watching DC legends and then supergirl and naruto movies. What else am i suppose to do?

Going to work today til 3am to see if i can hit 35 or so hours and then do at least 15 to 25 hours next week and just keep consistent 15 hours a week. But i also let my friends know i can't do katsu. my best friend isn't even talking to me, so i'll just stay to myself. I won't post no more today, so be safe, find something worth motivating, and look at funny memes. They make me feel better.


Also, trap mixes have been keeping me happy, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L-e2WTeTALw

Days 317, 318, 319, 320, 321, and 322

Hello everybody. I am so tired right now and I have good news and less good news. The good news is my old retail job called me in for seasonal work after I had not worked a straight week from my Administrative Assistant job. I have so far clocked in 28 hours and I am excited but also exhausted. Also good news I have went from 267 to 263.4. The reason being I have been going to morning job then going to my retail job then coming home showering and then going straight to sleep. Tomorrow I will technically get my first break. The less good news is that my new job has not contacted me yet so I will contact them tomorrow. Other than that all is well and I will be looking for a car very soon.

I must say with some issues that have been going on at home today is the first day that I have felt like a middle child. I don't want to get into the details because I am tired but I will explain probably this weekend. For now I'm going to shower and then go to sleep. Be safe reach for your goals and stay happy and motivated. Good night.

Days 314, 315, and 316

So im not gonna give yall the long story i gave my potential boyfriend but i will sum it up. Pros and cons today people.

Cons: I didn't get to work out this evening, my boss just reaching out to me after 4 damn days and saying no work till next so i missed a whole week of work, gonna have to give up on katsu (not losing weight) and i have a school fee to pay.

Pros: I did get some exercise in this morning. While my goal was 2800 steps i did close to 4000, so i did that. Because my boss irritated me with this not contacting crap I stepped up my game and applied for a federal job. I might detail on it later but i just finished it about 20 or 30 minutes ago. Because i won't see real pay checks til January I am 98% close to giving up on Katuscon, BUT i found out that i have graduation commencement in may for my masters, and I'm so excited for a trip to New Hampshire. Even though i have to pay a school fee, once i pay it, i not only get my diploma but also an official transcript, so that's a plus.

Extra key note, i'm on this new hair regimen...sort of new but i made my own hair cream out of shea butter, coconut oil, olive oil, lemon oil, and flax seed get and i use a spray bottle with water and very small amount of coconut milk...so lemme explain, i technically used teh rest of the coconut milk last week BUT i put some water in the bottle, shook it and poured what coconut milk it scraped out into my spray bottle. Eventually i will put some real amount of coconut milk in teh water and a bit in teh hair cream...and BOI, my hair is getting defined keeping my hair detangled and in twists and I love it. Might take a pic of my hair later...but im tired and ready for beds...oh yeah, still watching Legends of Tomorrow and gonna go back to Once Upon A Time. So be safe, reach for your goals, and stay motivated. Good night.

Day 313

Eating could have been much better, but meh. Just finished burning 500 calories while dancing and listening to kpop (in love with Taemin's Move right now). I also cleaned my room up, which I'm fucking proud of, and I watched DC legends of tomorrow today for a few hours, and watched NappyFu. I also made a sort of hair cream (natural mind you) made of shea butter, coconut oil, lemon oil, and flax seed gel. The gel is not so solidified but the who thing has a gelatin type texture so im good on it. Also got me a spray bottle that actually sprays like i want. Tip, get a spray bottle with a square nozzle, it will do so much better.

I have went back to drinking citrus water, which is so divine, and once I get back to 250 I'm just gonna motivate myself more by throwing away some more clothes. I have way too many for my liking and they can go right to my homeless project.

I feel Im missing talking about something...oh yeah last week. So had a car accident, which i believe i went over, i got paid late, did a program with Virginia social workers, teh house and suv i was looking at for next year are both gone...no correction, the car is definitely car, but the fucking house pissed me off. So I think i'll put the link to it here: (https://photos.zillowstatic.com/p_h/ISibkezvoj6toq1000000000.jpg) So if you click on that you will see a nice looking house and 3 car garage right?...Cool. So me and my mom go look saturday because i wanted to show her. We get there, the property bigger in my opinion than what is listed online, so i call an agent. The minute i say the address, get this, she apologizes saying "this is gonna be a pain in the butt but the house is being sold separately from the garage"

I try to keep my cool and nicely ask her what is the price of the garage, is it like 5,000 to 10,000 because that would still be in my cutoff of 150,000 for a house. Her response, unfortunately someone has already bought the garage, I'm so sorry that picture was put up there wrongly like that. It's not one of our listings, otherwise we would not have used that photo. I cussed all the way home, still pissed about that. WHO BUYS A THREE CAR GARAGE JUST BUY A REGULAR HOUSE!!! Yall should have seen me. But anywho, it's almost time for bed. More tomorrow. Be safe, reach for your goals, and be careful out here, love yall. Good night!

Day 312

Hello people. I should have gotten on here earlier, but I'm just getting on. I believe i was suppose to recap some stuff from last week but i'm just gonna talk about today. I ate whatever I wanted today, pretty much...I mean i didn't eat out i just ate whatever in the house. I made breakfast this morning consisting of boiled eggs, butter garlic toast, and fried apples. I didn't eat eggs but I did eat the other stuff along with some other "stuff" in the fridge. I took a nap with my nephew and that somehow put a weird dent in my day. Like my afternoon disappeared and you know how it is now with it getting dark all extra early and whatnot.
Played some Brawlhalla, found out the Saturn VUE I wanted was bought which caused me to be a bit mad, and watched my girl NappyFu on youtube. I don't prefer the term of my hair being called "naps" but I really do like this chick. She has given me the motivation to do what I'm suppose to do the rest of this month. Even though she is mainly for hair, she says at the end of every one of her videos that in order to have healthy hair you gotta do healthy things. I was like "yes, i need to do right" and so i washed my hair and did a deep conditioner and put it in twists and it feels amazing. Tomorrow, i make no promise, but i will try to get up and at least walk around the driveway a few times.
Also, my left arm and lower knee are gonna have to get looked at. They are bothering me and keeping me from doing the exercises I would love to do. I'll update on them later. For now, I'm off to play some Brawlhalla and then heads to bed. Be safe, reach for your goals, and stay motivated.

Days 309, 310, and 311

I have a lot to say but gonna make it quick.

Dec. 1 I was apart of VSCSW continuing education credit program and it went well. Gotta go into detail about this probably tomorrow. Went ahead and did my drug screen for my new counselor job for as i already mentioned, starts dec 5. Saw the house I had been looking into the past few days and found out that the person selling it, threw up a misleading picture, causing my mom to laugh at me while I cussed the whole ride back to our house. Bought some stuff for the homeless. One of my sisters is definitely pissing me off, and I found out that Steven Universe has 5 more new episodes...WAAAAAAH!!!

I will explain minor details of each event tomorrow...hopefully. Yesterday I ate late, but today I worked out by dancing up until an hour ago. not sure I made the full count, but i believe i had less than 100 calories over my count, so I'm happy.

With that, I'm tired, so I'm going to jump off here and wait for my friend to call me. If not, I'm heading to sleep. Be safe, reach for your goals, and I'm getting that thick body I always wanted form 2018 lol. Good night!!