Day 238 and 239

Day before yesterday i decided time to go back to what i originally wanted to do. Long story short, because i got to go to work, i was watching a youtuber named Jax going over workouts from Dragonball and Naruto and I had already watched One Punch Man. Again, long story short decided to do One Punch Man again, cut my eating, and drink more water. Yesterday did 10 squats, 10 situps, adn 10 knee pushups. Did 8000 steps (below) and now am 261. Today i just finished doing 20 of each adn will see if i can make minimum 5000 steps. Here's to less than 261 permanently.

Day 237

Morning of day 237 I thought i weighed 270, but weighed 264.5. Did dancing and cardio this evening which made me happy, but since i didn't drink enough water throughout the day i got tired quicker. I finished until midnight like i was suppose to though. Been watching naruto stuffs on youtube and this dude named Jax on youtube who likes breaking down anime workout. love it. Anywho, got work in teh morning so more on workout out and possibly fasting (with water) to bring in the new year. I needs to be down even if im not doing katsu...and then there's teh wedding. Be safe, make new years goals, and stay motivated.

Days 232, 233, 234, 235, and 236

I could have posted days ago, but decided not too...

...Hey ppl, hope you guys are still enjoying the holidays. Christmas (research this holiday pleeease) I hope was pleasant for you guys, i hope Hanukkah was good, AND we are in the middle of Kwanzaa. I'll explain Kwanzaa later.

Remade my hair cream, probably gained a pound or two these past 4 days from holiday food, and I'm rocking Brawlhalla as well as played some on my ps3. I played Final Fantasy 10 (my favorite of the bunch) and will start Assassin's Creed tomorrow.

I looked up some DDR stuff (which will take up a whole post) and definitly want to get back into playing.  Might see if I can play on my computer if not buy for the ps3 and ps4.

It is time for bed, so, i hope to get back on later. Be safe, reach for your new year goals, and be safe. Good night!!

Days 329, 330, and 331

Hello. I'm up, tired, and looking up jobs lol. But into the info, i gained weight, but I have fixed it and nipped it in teh bud. Did better eating today then the last 2 days. I also did kickboxing on the morning of day 329 and played basketball at my youth counseling job. So i'm excited that my counseling job with the young teens will be healthy as well.

Been doing dancing at night and looking into cardio moves to incorporate. Also, been looking into the medical field...again...and im really getting tired of this now. If people don't have what i want, answer the phone when i call, or the price i want, within reason of what im looking for, i need to revamp and make new medical/back up job goals.

The car issue is my main motherfucking problem. I straight told myself i can't wait to get this vehicle that cost about $3000. I didn't ask my godmother the question i should have asked about helping me "buy" a car because im sick of asking for help from people in general when i have all these damn jobs. At the beginning of the month i will mention it again the right way to her but im hoping i can just do it myself.

Finally, let me get a job that help me make at least $14 at 15 to 25 hours a week to help me get rid of my retail job and administrative asst job. I will be happy as hell. Waiting another week to see if the federal job i applied for say anything. I know they received it but they haven't said anything else. Oh well, time for bed. Be safe, reach for your goals, and stay motivated.

Days 325, 326, 327, and 328

Hello ppls. Since the 15th, or the 324th post of this blog, i have been on this adventure. For one, as of yesterday i went from 267 to 261.9 and got damn proud of myself. Eat 2 or 3 times a day, by 6pm i'm at my retail job, and i get home by like 1 or 2 AM and them i would have drank maybe 2 bottles of water and counted my steps on my samsung app, gaining over 4000 - 5000 steps. So I'm excited about that. Also, I started my Youth Counselor job on sunday and did 10 hours. Twas interesting. More on it later. Last week, if I have not mentioned it, I have accrued (is that the right word, lol) 42 hours last week AND 8 hours already this week. Took a break today. Tomorrow i'm hoping to add 10 hours for a full 60 hour paycheck. For some of yall that may not be as exciting but I'm fucking excited. My admin. assist. job i think i will make come to an end in mid january. Trying to add doing this office training and going to GMU for a seminar onto my career portfolio as well as ask for a recommendation for future use...or getting a doctorate. It'll come to me when i make the final decision. It's unreliable in need of paying for my shit when i need to pay for stuff. So...mid january i hope to be done with it.

On a goals note, I hope to be 250 (or by great blessing 248) by the end of teh month. Meaning i jsut need to lose 20 lbs before my colleagues' wedding day january 20th. Oh yes, I was allowed to bring my plus one, which is my potential boyfriend. BTW, done a lot of thinking about it and even though he hasn't contacted me as much as ive contacted him, he said he was honored he was allowed to come and that made me happy. He never complains about the stuff i complain about (such as life) and seems to really love my plans of "trying" to get into teh medical field. I mean I became a youth counselor and finished my masters, as my goals for this year. Next goal is phlebotomy and it's been rough as i don't have the funds, but him was supportive in my understanding. I'm in a good place right now...and there is my nephew crying, well more tomorrow. Stay motivated and be safe. GN!

Day 323 and 324

I'm so fucking irritated. It's the last day to get health insurance, which I can't because I have no money, i forgot to pay my current insurance which ends at the end of the month anyway, I'm broke, I am an employee under 4 mother fucking jobs and only working 2 of them, 1 i start tomorrow, and 1 i'm inactive because i can't drive and they didn't find me a client to work with. Tried to talk to my mother and it felt like she was blowing me off. I just want a car to work extra if i want and leave when i want. And my youngest sister should have been working to help out. I feel so broken right now, don't want to ask my godmother for help, and went up a pound.

I know i'll get paid well in january but i'm technically broke til then. I don't even celebrate Christmas but do like giving gifts, getting stuff for the homeless, and celebrating Kwanzaa. When i get paid I really don't know how im going to budget it. Might just buy me juice and alcohol and spend the entire holiday week watching DC legends and then supergirl and naruto movies. What else am i suppose to do?

Going to work today til 3am to see if i can hit 35 or so hours and then do at least 15 to 25 hours next week and just keep consistent 15 hours a week. But i also let my friends know i can't do katsu. my best friend isn't even talking to me, so i'll just stay to myself. I won't post no more today, so be safe, find something worth motivating, and look at funny memes. They make me feel better.


Also, trap mixes have been keeping me happy, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L-e2WTeTALw

Days 317, 318, 319, 320, 321, and 322

Hello everybody. I am so tired right now and I have good news and less good news. The good news is my old retail job called me in for seasonal work after I had not worked a straight week from my Administrative Assistant job. I have so far clocked in 28 hours and I am excited but also exhausted. Also good news I have went from 267 to 263.4. The reason being I have been going to morning job then going to my retail job then coming home showering and then going straight to sleep. Tomorrow I will technically get my first break. The less good news is that my new job has not contacted me yet so I will contact them tomorrow. Other than that all is well and I will be looking for a car very soon.

I must say with some issues that have been going on at home today is the first day that I have felt like a middle child. I don't want to get into the details because I am tired but I will explain probably this weekend. For now I'm going to shower and then go to sleep. Be safe reach for your goals and stay happy and motivated. Good night.

Days 314, 315, and 316

So im not gonna give yall the long story i gave my potential boyfriend but i will sum it up. Pros and cons today people.

Cons: I didn't get to work out this evening, my boss just reaching out to me after 4 damn days and saying no work till next so i missed a whole week of work, gonna have to give up on katsu (not losing weight) and i have a school fee to pay.

Pros: I did get some exercise in this morning. While my goal was 2800 steps i did close to 4000, so i did that. Because my boss irritated me with this not contacting crap I stepped up my game and applied for a federal job. I might detail on it later but i just finished it about 20 or 30 minutes ago. Because i won't see real pay checks til January I am 98% close to giving up on Katuscon, BUT i found out that i have graduation commencement in may for my masters, and I'm so excited for a trip to New Hampshire. Even though i have to pay a school fee, once i pay it, i not only get my diploma but also an official transcript, so that's a plus.

Extra key note, i'm on this new hair regimen...sort of new but i made my own hair cream out of shea butter, coconut oil, olive oil, lemon oil, and flax seed get and i use a spray bottle with water and very small amount of coconut milk...so lemme explain, i technically used teh rest of the coconut milk last week BUT i put some water in the bottle, shook it and poured what coconut milk it scraped out into my spray bottle. Eventually i will put some real amount of coconut milk in teh water and a bit in teh hair cream...and BOI, my hair is getting defined keeping my hair detangled and in twists and I love it. Might take a pic of my hair later...but im tired and ready for beds...oh yeah, still watching Legends of Tomorrow and gonna go back to Once Upon A Time. So be safe, reach for your goals, and stay motivated. Good night.

Day 313

Eating could have been much better, but meh. Just finished burning 500 calories while dancing and listening to kpop (in love with Taemin's Move right now). I also cleaned my room up, which I'm fucking proud of, and I watched DC legends of tomorrow today for a few hours, and watched NappyFu. I also made a sort of hair cream (natural mind you) made of shea butter, coconut oil, lemon oil, and flax seed gel. The gel is not so solidified but the who thing has a gelatin type texture so im good on it. Also got me a spray bottle that actually sprays like i want. Tip, get a spray bottle with a square nozzle, it will do so much better.

I have went back to drinking citrus water, which is so divine, and once I get back to 250 I'm just gonna motivate myself more by throwing away some more clothes. I have way too many for my liking and they can go right to my homeless project.

I feel Im missing talking about something...oh yeah last week. So had a car accident, which i believe i went over, i got paid late, did a program with Virginia social workers, teh house and suv i was looking at for next year are both gone...no correction, the car is definitely car, but the fucking house pissed me off. So I think i'll put the link to it here: (https://photos.zillowstatic.com/p_h/ISibkezvoj6toq1000000000.jpg) So if you click on that you will see a nice looking house and 3 car garage right?...Cool. So me and my mom go look saturday because i wanted to show her. We get there, the property bigger in my opinion than what is listed online, so i call an agent. The minute i say the address, get this, she apologizes saying "this is gonna be a pain in the butt but the house is being sold separately from the garage"

I try to keep my cool and nicely ask her what is the price of the garage, is it like 5,000 to 10,000 because that would still be in my cutoff of 150,000 for a house. Her response, unfortunately someone has already bought the garage, I'm so sorry that picture was put up there wrongly like that. It's not one of our listings, otherwise we would not have used that photo. I cussed all the way home, still pissed about that. WHO BUYS A THREE CAR GARAGE JUST BUY A REGULAR HOUSE!!! Yall should have seen me. But anywho, it's almost time for bed. More tomorrow. Be safe, reach for your goals, and be careful out here, love yall. Good night!

Day 312

Hello people. I should have gotten on here earlier, but I'm just getting on. I believe i was suppose to recap some stuff from last week but i'm just gonna talk about today. I ate whatever I wanted today, pretty much...I mean i didn't eat out i just ate whatever in the house. I made breakfast this morning consisting of boiled eggs, butter garlic toast, and fried apples. I didn't eat eggs but I did eat the other stuff along with some other "stuff" in the fridge. I took a nap with my nephew and that somehow put a weird dent in my day. Like my afternoon disappeared and you know how it is now with it getting dark all extra early and whatnot.
Played some Brawlhalla, found out the Saturn VUE I wanted was bought which caused me to be a bit mad, and watched my girl NappyFu on youtube. I don't prefer the term of my hair being called "naps" but I really do like this chick. She has given me the motivation to do what I'm suppose to do the rest of this month. Even though she is mainly for hair, she says at the end of every one of her videos that in order to have healthy hair you gotta do healthy things. I was like "yes, i need to do right" and so i washed my hair and did a deep conditioner and put it in twists and it feels amazing. Tomorrow, i make no promise, but i will try to get up and at least walk around the driveway a few times.
Also, my left arm and lower knee are gonna have to get looked at. They are bothering me and keeping me from doing the exercises I would love to do. I'll update on them later. For now, I'm off to play some Brawlhalla and then heads to bed. Be safe, reach for your goals, and stay motivated.

Days 309, 310, and 311

I have a lot to say but gonna make it quick.

Dec. 1 I was apart of VSCSW continuing education credit program and it went well. Gotta go into detail about this probably tomorrow. Went ahead and did my drug screen for my new counselor job for as i already mentioned, starts dec 5. Saw the house I had been looking into the past few days and found out that the person selling it, threw up a misleading picture, causing my mom to laugh at me while I cussed the whole ride back to our house. Bought some stuff for the homeless. One of my sisters is definitely pissing me off, and I found out that Steven Universe has 5 more new episodes...WAAAAAAH!!!

I will explain minor details of each event tomorrow...hopefully. Yesterday I ate late, but today I worked out by dancing up until an hour ago. not sure I made the full count, but i believe i had less than 100 calories over my count, so I'm happy.

With that, I'm tired, so I'm going to jump off here and wait for my friend to call me. If not, I'm heading to sleep. Be safe, reach for your goals, and I'm getting that thick body I always wanted form 2018 lol. Good night!!

Day 308 Part B

We are now at the end of the day. I did fucking great guys (trying to cut back on cussing but so excited yet tired at the same time). I had 4 eating times. This morning had a flatbread lettuce, cheese, and tomato sandwich with lemon juice and lemon pepper. Lunch, had nachos with meat crumbles (veggie) and melted cheese and shredded lettuce with some juice from the stewed tomatoes to keep it from tasting dry (to me). Had pb&j on flatbread with a half cup of cheerios dry for snack. For dinner, spaghetti homemade. It's been great. Under in my calories. I would show the pic of my nachos, but i think i'll do that tomorrow. Also, feeling okay from incident. Do feel some aches from when i messed up exercising this year but other than that, nothing from the accident. However tomorrow still awaits, so we'll see. What else?...Oh yeah, saw all the young Naruto films and will start the Shippuden ones now lol. So with that, time for bed. Be safe, reach for your goals, and you can be motivated! GN!

Days 307 and 308 Part A

Hello. Yesterday I was under in my calories (good for me) and I ate fairly okay. However, I was supposed to make it to George Mason University for an event with my boss and coworker, but we never made it, know why? Freaking car accident. It was bad. We are all okay. No scratches or anything, but there is a broken piece off my boss' car. Two other cars hit us and hit each other and then a lady (assuming) driving to miss it ended up getting hit by a 18 wheeler. Never have i seen something so close. We all walked away.

With all that, I still did good. I weighed 267 last week and now am 266. Today I counted calories for breakfast (flatbread with tomato, lettuce, cheese, and lemon pepper and lemon juice) which came to 382 calories. I also have the step counter on, and since I'm supposed to take it easy, I simply walked around the driveway twice to aid in my food digestion. So far I'm happy. Not suppose to do strenuous work today so I will walk, but not anything else. If I can hold off til 2:00 then that's when I'll eat lunch.

On the positive side, I've been looking at cars and houses. Found a saturn suv i like and a 4 bedroom house with all we want. Just gots to start my jobs so i can get them. I'm excited. Also, once I get a car, I'm thinking about behavior technician. It pays $20 an hour, so why not. Life is damn short. Until next post!!

Days 304, 305, and 306

So i pretty much failed the last two days, with the exception of counting steps. BUT TODAY BOI!!!! I did good.

So this morning my ass was disappointed by two things. One, because of an issue beyond my control I couldn't get paid today, and Two, since I couldn't get paid today, I couldn't go buy fruit amongst other things. So I ate Thanksgiving leftovers. Now my ass got up and went out for my walk around 5:30 ish and did my 4000 steps. Great right? Then after playing Brawlhalla for an hour I couldn't resist eating dinner. Due to the fact I couldn't redo dinner calories to automatic I went in and estimated by replacing with pasta (at 4 times the amount). That came to 880 calories, resulting in being 900 calories over my goal of the day on Samsung Health.

So at this point I feel i failed yet again. I had did all my exercises and steps for the day and yet I still failed...but then I was in my room pondering "what the fuck is my problem" there must be some exercise I can do to burn this off before I head to bed, because I can't keep failing myself. Thank God I saw "dancing" on Samsung Health. I burned 1000 calories dancing in an hour to pop music YAAAY!! I am so proud of myself. I found my outlet. I also continued to count steps. Can't wait to do it all tomorrow. So be safe, reach for your goal, and yes you can get that damn body!!

Day 303 Part B

Well I definitely didn't eat like I should have which included two more smoothies didn't have enough fruit I know but I did drink my five cups of water and my goal was to drink four so I'm happy about that. also been watching Arrow and I am on season 5 episode 20. some ill start season 6 and I'll talk about other shows later. I'm excited to get up in the morning and kick off another great day of working out so I want everybody out there to be safe, reach for your goals, and stay motivated.

Day 303 Part A

I am so excited I got up this morning and did my exercises I did 3 sets of wall push-ups 5 reps each and did a minute of leg lifts and a minute of sit-ups so I probably did more than 30 each I also did a minute of jumping jacks and did over 4,000 steps. About to drink my strawberry pineapple water smoothie and play on my PS4. Hope everyone is staying motivated and I will message later.

Days 300, 301, and 302

HAPPY THANKSGIVING! I don't believe i worked out day 300, but yesterday i went outside and did push ups, sit ups, leg lifts, and from then and throughout the day completed over 4000 steps. I also finished Flash (so sad) yesterday and working on Arrow. Since today is Thanksgiving, and i had to do corn pudding, devil eggs, and other stuffs, i didn't get to workout, but i thought to myself, why not make my own regimen again?

Switch every other day; 3 smoothies and 3 bottles of water a day; spray water/oil on hair

1 MINUTE OF JUMPING JACKS              4000 STEPS               

THOROUGH STRETCH                              30 LEG LIFTS

3 SETS OF 5 WALL PUSHUPS                   30 SIT UPS

3 SETS OF 5 DIPS     3 SETS OF 5 SQUATS      10 SECOND PLANK  

So I'll do the top portion tomorrow and the bottom portion (along with jumping jacks, steps, and stretching of course) day after tomorrow. This is durable I know. The idea was to make it so that i have no excuse saying I couldn't do it. I accounted for knee pain and i need to start from the very bottom to do proper push ups. I'm optimistic in heading toward TenTen, Karui, and Fuu. Gonna keep myself motivated from here on out. Be safe, reach for your goals, and stay mother fucking motivated...

Oh yeah, be thankful and remember to research these holidays. Remember how we got here!!

Day 298 and 299

Yesterday I join the National Congress of black women and became project coordinator for the homelessness committee. Today I found out that I will be having orientation for my new job next week and I am excited. I did not get to exercise this morning but I will exercise tomorrow and do the new workout I implemented which I will show tomorrow. Be safe, reach for your goals, and stay motivated.

Day 292, 293, 294, 295, 296, and 297

So I have not been updating because I have been failing. So far most of the time I account for steps everywhere I go on Samsung health, I am awaiting an orientation date for the youth counselor position, and found out stuff about the retail job I had that was so ironically funny, I should post at least a vague description tomorrow. Until morning. Be safe, reach for your goals, and help me stay motivated.

Day 291

So I followed through with Samsung Health today and it went pretty well. Decided that from now on I'll listen to spanish lessons (Spanish with Paul on Youtube) while walking and do a video of sign language during the day. Gonna see if I can do some exercises on samsung health before i head to bed to see how it will work (yeah sounds confusing right now, will explain tomorrow). Ate more of mom sheppard pie then i should, but other than that, counted steps at times throughout the house. Wish i remembered while i was cleaning though, lol. Well, here's to a good night sleep. Be safe, reach for your goals, and stay motivated!!

Day 290

Hello. Went for a walk this morning and also did some walking in the house toward my samsung health steps. Cleaned up room a bit and did a bit of laundry (fresh linen clean from urine; my nephew is still learning, lol), went back over the alphabet in sign language (one of the languages I hope to have a basic understanding of by the end of the month) and played a lot of Brawlhalla.

Speaking of goals: I know i want to lose weight and i'm working on it. As for all my other goals,  I plan to have basic Spanish and basic Sign Language on my resume/cv, become a youth counselor for this job i applied for, get an suv, and I'm pretty sure a slew of other things, but I'm getting quite tired and my nephew is looking at me closing my eyes lol. (Also been quite positive/uplifting today).

Til morrow...or later I guess. Be safe, reach for your goals, and please please stay motivated.

Day 289

It has been a day. I'm so tired I will shorten it...maybe speak on more of it tomorrow.

First I took a walk and didn't record the steps, no prob, recorded them throughout the day. Then yesterday and today  I told that I finished my masters and I didn't get the reaction I wanted (exception my parents, youngest and oldest sibling) until I posted how sad I was feeling about it on one of my favorite groups on facebook. They made me feel a lot better by telling me to stay awesome and congrats that i finished my masters. And my potential bf. I later find out that my mom said one of the people i told that didn't react was having an issue i knew nothing about, however, we won't get into it.

I played Brawlhalla and that went well today, tried to get my fingerprints done for the youth counselor job and found out the precinct headquarters was closed in view of Veterans Day as well as the people who set me up for an interview at noon today who were not there either. So it's been an up and down day. Tried to watch Age of Ultron (not loading propertly) while drinking vodka and juice and read some religion stuff that had me f***ed up. It needs to be a post by itself.

Well, gonna hit the hey. I've had enough today. Be safe, reach for your goals, and stay motivated. GN.

Day 288

So a lot kinda happened today. I did not exercise, so i will get my ass up in the morning and do that, I learned of a ps4 game called "Brawlhalla" so that is the greatest game similar to Brawl I ever downloaded and played for 2 hours, finished my last discussion post  replies...and teh big prize of the day....wait for it...I FINISHED MY MASTERS AND GOT AN 800/800 FOR MY THESIS!!!!!!!!!

I went thru the house like a mad crazy woman about how excited I was, but due to the mishap we had yesterday with a guest at the house, my sisters and brother in law have been shitty. Told my sister I finished and was so excited but she didn't even crack a smile. This hurts my feelings, it really does because I have been waiting for this for 2.5 mother fucking years, adn the day I'm literally done is the day after the bullshit. Well, I will be celebrating probably by myself this weekend, with some alcohol and some shows like Arrow and Flash. Til morrow. Be safe, reach for your goals, and stay motivated people!!!

Day 286 and 287

Hello everyone so today has been interesting I turned in my background packet got two job interviews worked out this morning and play Dream Drop Distance.  Yesterday was everyone's day to vote and my home state of Virginia did real well with the voting and I'm proud of everyone who went out and voted. Last but not least got me some smoothies today yay. Well pretty tired. Gonna hit the hey. Be safe, reach for your goals, and stay motivated.

Day 285

Walked a little over 1500 steps this morning
 Got some bananas to make smoothie in the morning and I go voting tomorrow. Be safe, reach for your goals, and VOTE TOMORROW!!

Day 284

My mouth hurts...I just did my very last paper, my thesis for my last class. I did a reflection paper as well, and i did a powerpoint. I tried to do a voice over narration like 5 times and now my mouth hurts. Feel a weird sense of freedom though. Playing the waiting game on my grade.

Straightened up my bedroom a bit, washing a small bit of clothes, and gonna do my small workout then hit the bed. Be safe, reach for your goals, and stay motivated!

Day 283

Hello. It is late and due to circumstances i have to deal with in teh morning, I will make this short. I repeated the small exercised from last night a little while ago. Pray that i finish my last thesis paper due tomorrow and that I start memorizing some poems. Also, sold my car to the junk people today...you should see my sad face, but i'm hoping for better after the next 3 paychecks, maybe a $3000 car, preferably SUV. Any who, for those out there doing school, MAKE COPIES OF YOUR UNOFFICIAL AND OFFICIAL TRANSCRIPTS. This is not a joke. My sister was helping me do my Curriculum Vitae, or CV for short and her CV got her a job interview and possibly start within a month after she straightens some personal stuff out. Man life is interesting.

Also, remember to fall back and spring forward...unless it's automatic for you lol. Be safe, reach for your goals, and stay motivated.

Day 282

Learned a few things today. One, I don't need to worry about going back to school for a while until i can deal with school loans...don't worry i haven't got over $100,000 of loans. Two, i need to know how to work on my own damn vehicle since my Chevrolet Cavalier is beyond my reach now and i have to junk it. Three, need to finish my poem on my phone about how life is ridiculous. Four, I want to do so much for everyone since life is fucked up.

Other than crazy life, i am alive, not hunger, played ddd, looked over my final assignment due Sunday (which I'll describe tomorrow) and I did not count walking steps today. However, a little while ago I decided to do the following: 5 squats, 5 crunches, 5 leg lifts, 5 sit ups, 5 russian twists, and 5 seconds of planking. Not so much for weight loss, but to keep myself active and for strength. Need to keep doing better.

Want to discuss more, like the pineapple veggie drink i made with my niece and nephew tonight and how my brother in law and sisters picked my nerve today, but I need to go to bed for stuff in the morning. Be safe, reach for your goals, and stay motivated!!

Day 281

This morning did my workout. Still working on doing right in the evening, but taking it slow. Found out today my car engine is wrangled and mangled and I need a new car basically. (tears) My precious Toushiro. Hope and pray to have a car by Monday and finish my final huge paper tomorrow. Until then, be safe, reach for your goals and stay motivated.

Day 278, 279, and 280

So much has happened in the last few days so i'll try to sum it all up.

Day 278 had a great phone interview for Youth Counselor.

Day 279 twas really irritated with my youngest sister, my second sister had surgery which went well and my cousin went in the hospital for high blood pressure and bloody nose (she seems okay for now and hope she continues to get better). Also was told to fill out my background check for the Youth Counselor job. Ate candies, played Dream Drop Distance, watch Monster High (so awesome), and a movie called Stitches on Netflix (seriously watch it, it is a certain type of special).

Day 280 i got off my ass this morning and used my samsung health app (below). I got stuff at work done and talked to a friend of my brother's about getting my car fixed. Also, my Direct Support Professional job said they had a client for me on Monday and Wednesdays once my car is situated i can do that. Money is about to be up in this place.

Gonna try to keep pace with everything. Even gonna call about the phlebotomy class tomorrow to start it in January. So far things are looking up. Now once i start rolling with these paychecks i can save for a house. I'm happy. Be safe, reach for your goals, and stay motivated!!

Day 277 Part B

So my favorite song is KARD's Don't Recall. I love it, I love it, I love it. Listening to it now. Cleaned up, cooked a corn pudding, played Dream Drop Distance, watered my hair and put in coconut oil, and about to watch Tsurezure Children with a friend of mine over the phone.

So within the last hour I was browsing youtube and while looking up KARD, I saw there was this dance competition and it was a black girl group called Iridescentvibes and they are popping. They did a rendition of Blackpink's Boombahyah and it was sooooo good, i now follow them on Instagram. Also, they may have just motivated me to do KARD's Don't Recall. Definitely need to find 2 other guys and a girl to dance. But hopefully that can happen in January. I need to spice up my life since i'm about to be done with my Masters. Well, gonna get off. Be safe, reach for your dreams, and let's all start Super Saiyan Workout!!!!

Day 276 and 277 Part A

So yesterday i did not count my steps while walking. My sisters and brother in law went to my younger sister's college football game. They won their homecoming game so it was good. Later in the night however when we were playing cards, it got bad. I started to get real upset. Sometimes you just don't know why you are upset. But we were all drinking beer and my sister was yelling the whole damn time. Mind you my sinuses were bad as well and my tooth was aching from sinus pressure. my brother in law and his wife (my other sister) got into it about something and the night ended. I took some medicine and finally went to sleep.

This morning i put oil in my car and it is doing better. I put a second quart in and will check it after i finish making this corn pudding (from scratch) and cleaning the house. I decided i will from now on not say anything to my youngest sister. Even though my middle sister gets on my nerve sometimes as well. However, thanks to my youngest sister ruining intervention (alcohol related) to a family member i wanted to aid in I made my final decision to not go with her wherever she is going for grad school. She has done too much "ig" stuff for me.

Well I feel a little better now getting that out. Watch netflix crime documentary and listening to VIXX so i can start cooking and cleaning. Hope all is well with everyone else. BTW, twisted my hair this weekend and i hope to hold it up til december. I will only be rinsing with water, doing coconut milk rinses, and using coconut oil to seal in moisture. Trying to get as chemical free as possible now. Also, thinking about going back to trying the vegan diet. Only difference this time is i will use products made with eggs and will try to find an alternative to honey. Till next post!

Day 275

Hello. So I did not walk this morning. I should have counted my steps when I was at walmart with my mother but it slipped my mind. I did however finish dinner between 8:30 and 9:30 ish. Drinking bai coconut juice and will drink a bottle of water before bed. Currently listening to kpop while putting in twists. Til morrow. Be safe, reach for your goals, and good night!

Day 274

Today i did not exercise, i did eat quite okay. I stopped myself from eating extra a while ago which means the last time i ate was around 9 ish. So i can go to bed without food on my stomach. Heading to bed will walk in teh morning. Be safe, reach for your goals, and good night!

Day 273

I did okay today. Got up, did my 1500 steps as planned (about 1600 actually), had milk with a dash or two of protein powder, some slices of pineapple, guacamole chips (which i had already bought a day or two okay and need to not buy anymore), water, plain chex cereal with bananas and milk, and a little two much barbeque chicken for dinner with a few pieces of fries and a half of corn on the cob. I know I need to go back to cutting out dairy, that stuff has been messing up my air if you catch my drift. Other than this, gonna drink some water and hit the hay. Also, instead of the one punch man workout, gonna incorporate Super Saiyan, yeah i know its corny, but gotta have fun with it. Wedding in January and convention in February...not to mention december 31 i want to be wearing fun stuff. So be safe, reach for your goals, and watch out for alternative facts.

Day 269, 270, 271, and 272

So this evening of day 272 i came into some info from my potential boyfriend. Because of this information and my wedding invitation earlier in the week to verify im coming in January, i needed to again evaluate myself. And yes this is the umteenth time. I know.

However, I do indeed need to get life together. Already came into the kitchen tonight and cut up pineapple and got some bananas on the table. Need to walk in the morning and eat and go to work and drink water throughout. We shall see if i can post a new plan to stick to til the end of January. Until then, good night!

Days 260-268

Because of last weekend i'll be going back to the dc area this weekend...long story short, my car did not make it pass the northern dc area. So that will be fun...somehow. Also, signed up for 3 days of kickboxing to get myself back in order. Took a mile walk a few days ago with a co-worker during "self-care" time and I will be done with my masters in about 3-4 weeks. Been binge watching arrow for the last 5 or so hours, so gonna finish this one and then off to bed. Been an irritating/weird weekend. Hope its been okay for everyone else. Also hoping for another job. good night!!

Days 257,258, and 259

Hello people, happy Fall...I guess.

It's 2 days until my trip to Philly. I was supposed to be drinking more liquids, and I am, but I have not at all exercised. I figured since i will have to stop exercising for a while I might as well start yoga...maybe tomorrow, maybe saturday morning while at my hotel. We'll see. I already know who I'm gonna be watching.

Anywho, I have an interview on Monday when I get back. Let me plz get that because it will be about 9 or 10 hours a week and I will be super satisfied. I'll be a Intensive In home counselor and that will def jump start my counseling career. So yes. Also, my first date with my potential boyfriend is this weekend in Philly, so I'm hoping that goes well. I definitely need to get back into my all smoothie based diet. I was losing like 5 pounds a week on it and then i got off it. Once I get back on, I need to do at least 4 weeks straight before thanksgiving. and then reach 220 ish or lower by the mid of December so I can post it.

And a knee brace, and doctor appt lol. Until then, be safe, reach for your goals, and watch out for each other. Racial tensions are high, employment issues, police, military, health insurance, it's all starting to crush together and increase stress levels. Stay positive everyone. Love you. Good night!

Days 253, 254, 255, and 256

So my bday went well. Following into day 255 I did pretty well in the beginning by exercising adn the lastest i ate was probably around 6. I fucked up today by not exercising. However, thru out the day my knee felt funny, and while i can give up squats for a time, i don't want to give up exercising complety. Maybe tomorrow i'll break 1000 steps just to be "active" until i go to a doctor. Don't want my knee to fuck me up later. Night!!

By the way, needed new motivation and so i remembered my first person I wanted to cosplay: Kusanagi from Ghost in the Shell. Gots a lot of work to do. Be safe, reach for your goals, and stay active!!

Days 249, 250, 251, and 252

So today is my bday. It has been quite a nice 28th bday, but tomorrow i hit the ground running toward my trip to philadelphia next weekend. As I'm still celebrating my bday, i will keep up to date starting tomorrow. Be safe, reach for your goals, and stay happy!! 

Should be able to post pics tomorrow, lol. 

Day 247 and 248

I have to get up to go to church with fam in the morning but i have failed these past two days on my dieting. That's the bad news, good news is my over the phone "watch anime" date went well. I watched Tsuredure Children and it is good. But i must get to sleep and i hope to restart my diet after my bday. Be safe, reach for your goals, and good night!

Day 246

My head is aching a bit so ima make this quick. I worked out this morning but only did about 2500 of the 4000 I was supposed to do. I did 40 jumping jacks for a warm up, 40 squats, 40 crunches, and 30 regular push ups. Because of how my day had went, I did not get to do the rest of my workout. However, I only had water, smoothie, and a small cup of alcohol, and I'm about to drink water again. Now that I think about it, it might explain the headache. Well, off I go. Til morrow.

Day 245

Today I had salmon cake and ice cream. Since i had it today i decided for the rest of the week until my birthday it will be all smoothies. So...I know it's short but be safe, reach for your goals, and good night!!

Day 243 and 244

Yesterday I made over 4,000 steps and today I did 5338 steps, burning 301 calories and doing over 2 miles. My weight fluctuated up due to eating at an open house for a job last night. I didn't eat anything bad I promise, crackers, hummus, strawberries, grapes, and cheese...and my own water since the liquids provided were not 100% juice. Even though what I ate was not bad, the time of the meeting (5pm-6pm) is what caused the bad fluctuation. However, I ate earlier today finishing around 2pm and with the exception of eating 5 or so corn chips this afternoon, I have done great. Gonna finish watching Assassination Classroom and then head to bed.

Oh yeah, went down memory lane listening to stuff from the early 2000s of my youth. Yay. Well, be safe, reach for your goals, and good night!!

Day 242

Feel like crap at this moment. Do believe me when I said i got my stuff done. Did my discussion post responses, did my walk, did my push ups, squats, and crunches, and saw Arrow all afternoon. I currently weight 247.2. I'm getting there. Also been watching Assassination Classroom. Now I'm somewhat irritated, but more tired than anything. A certain somebody hasn't contacted me, but it's all good, i'm going to bed.

Oh yeah, bought tomato wraps and had a wrap made of tomatoes, cheese, onions, cucumber, lettuce and olive oil mayo with a side of corn chips. Was so bum!!! Loved it!! Also had corn chips and salsa. Anywho, be safe, reach for your goals, and stay on task!

Day 241

So today I was supposed to watch an anime with my potential boyfriend (over the phone or whatever) and it never happened today. My reaction: irritation. I know things can come up and emergencies, and even family...but hours have gone by today and when he does respond, it's to my samsung health step meter i send i few people when i'm done taking my walk. That urks me and has had me in a foul mood, with the exception of listening to Rick and Morty while I took my brother to his cousin's place. On top of all this, my sister and mom urked me this afternoon with the "mall" situation.

On a positive note, I watched some of Assassination Classroom season 2, I did 4304 steps (1.75 miles and 243 calories), and i weigh 248.2 pounds...so yeah. After I watch this episode I'm going to bed, I've had enough of today. Be safe, reach for your goals, and try to be happy, bc I'm sure as hell not feeling happy right now...but i will rest well. Good night!!

Day 239 and 240

Hello, currently talking to my potential boyfriend about work related stuff, lol. But today was pretty okay. I bombed the workout this evening. Yesterday I did 4089 steps. Today I did 25 jumping jacks, 25 crunches, 25 regular punches, and 25 squats. I did a whopping 6202 steps. I'm so proud of myself. Pretty tired, so after we finish talking I'm going to head to bed and be ready for tomorrow. Also, using coconut milk now and I love it. More on it tomorrow. Be safe, reach for your goals, and good night!

Day 238

Hello kingdom citizens. To start off on an honest note, the past week I've been quick to wrap up my notes and I feel I should do more about that...but anywho, this morning, due to a schedule change, I was able to fully finish my workout without rushing. I did 25 jumping jacks for a warm up, 25 squats, 25 crunches, 10 regular pushups and 15 knee pushups, and 4418 steps which equaled 2.11 miles and 277 calories. I feel happy. Also, I'm eating no meat. Weighing myself in the morning to see how that goes. About to finish the last three episodes of Naruto Shippuden and then I can watch all the movies and start Arrow and Boruto. Until tomorrow. Be safe, reach for your goals, and good night!!

Day 236 and 237

I am so tired. Yesterday I hit 4067 steps and today i hit 4866 steps. Yesterday I also did 12 squats, 30 crunches, and 10 regular push ups. Looking forward to keeping up on pace with everything. Here's to a good workout when I wake up. Be safe, reach for your goals, and get some rest!

Day 234 and 235

So just finished my first paper assignment for my last class and I feel free, but am definitely starting early from here on out. On a healthy note, starting tomorrow I can make my regular smoothies, finally went and got my funds today for work and I'm excited. Back to fruits and veggies. I'm going to try and wing this until my bday and weigh myself Friday. Be safe, reach for your goals, and good night!!

Remember: 100 push ups, 100 sit ups, 100 squats, and for me, as of right now, 4000 steps everyday!
             

Day 232 and 233

I'm tired. It's been an interesting day. I just listed some cited resources to do my 3 page paper tomorrow. I'm in my psychology capstone and even though it's laid back, it's the most crucial class and I'll be glad when these weeks swing by.

Hope to hear back from one of the hospitals I applied to. Got an email to fill out a work credit tax form, which i hope is a really positive thing. Filled it out, found out which position it was for (mental health technician prn) and I hope to heck I get it, because I need it.

Today I wanted to do 7000 steps but set my goal for 4000. I ended up doing 4097 I think, which was about 1.78 miles and burned 249 calories. I really need to just get my eating in check and i'm going to exercise tomorrow morning. Hope everyone is doing okay for this weekend. Be safe, reach for your goals, and help others if you can this week with the hurricanes. For some reason, Jose decided he wanted to do his own thing. I'm in Virginia, so we are keeping our eyes peeled. Again, stay safe and have a good night.

Day 230 and 231

Hello. I know i have been fucking up, but today I got up and went out and by doing half the steps this morning and just finishing the other half a little while ago, I did 7018 steps with samsung health and burned a total of 424 calories over 3.06 miles. Not bad. Now if I can control my afternoon eating a bit more I'll be on par with how i was before i went to otakon. Gonna drink 2 more of my citrus water with cayenne, tumeric, and maybe honey, probably not the honey. I will weigh myself Friday, then monday, and then friday again. My goal is to get my shit together so i can be fulfilling my goal by my bday.

Need to also start work on my thesis for this last class. 8.5 weeks to go and im free from school...until i do phlebotomy class. Hopefully i do this cheap class and get hired by this company in my city. Until tomorrow people. Don't give up, keep going, if you fuck up, keep going. Be safe, reach for your goals, and this is still hurricane season so be careful and keep hope alive.

Day 229

I was good the whole day until my sister and bro in law said they were making steaks, something i don't eat. Ate it and had already decided to let today go so my foot could get back to normal. For now, getting some rest and starting back up tomorrow with the one punch man workout and 4000 steps. See yalls tomorrow. Be safe, reach for your goals, and stay updated on these hurricanes.

Day 228

Did about 3000 steps today and 30 squats and 30 crunches. Not that great with food, but did drink lots of citrus water today. Be safe guys and keep up to date on the hurricane!!

Day 227

10008 steps, 601 calories, and over 4 miles. Have to run out. Talk to you guys later. Be safe!!

Day 226

So i fucked up on eating this afternoon because i ate too early...don't feel like explaining it but will do so probably tomorrow. Anywho, i weighed 249.8 this morning. Might not be that way tomorrow morning. Gonna drink some water bottles before bed to hopefully help. If not, i know i messed up with eating.

For my workout i did 5140 steps equaling 2.25 miles and 311 calories. I did 100 crunches and 100 push ups. I did 0 squats today due to knee issues. I hope to start back on them after the weekend. Also I did thigh lifts instead of jumping jacks. Feeling okay. As i said, gonna drink more citrus water, probably add some cayenne and turmeric and after some Naruto episodes, hit the hey for my marvelous weekend. Be safe, reach for your goals, and be careful during this hurricane season!

Day 225

Hello people.

What I did today I'm going to cut short, because i'm tired.

Worked out this evening doing the following as well as food:

Had smoothie, citrus water, bag of potato chips (don't judge me, they the dollar ones) tuna with mayo and relish, 1 slice of bread, walked 5332 steps equaling out to 2.28 miles and 319 calories. I weighed 250.5 lbs this morning so i know the cereal yesterday was a big no no. Today I did fairly better, my muscles don't hurt and I look forward to kicking ass tomorrow. Be safe, reach for your goals, and be prepared for the hurricanes.

Day 224

So gonna be quick with this. I had to cut my workout in half again and have to estimate the steps due to the fact that the Samsung app had somewhere along the line starting counting my steps while I wasn't exercising, so i estimate i did over 4000 plus steps and i did 100 squats, 100 crunches, and 70 push ups. Mind you, these push ups are done on my knees until otherwise.

Ate more than I probably should but ate chicken salad with bread and cinnamon toast crunch with craisins and stopped eating at around 4:30 or 5:00. Look forward to tomorrow. Oh and I weighted 250.8 this morning. So be safe, reach for your goals, and be aware of the hurricanes.

Day 223

So I walked 2300 or so steps the first part of my day, due to stuff this morning, and did the last 1700 or so this evening, equating to 4010 steps in total. I burned 258 calories and walked/jogged 1.83 miles. Body is sore from yesterday, but definitely looking forward to tomorrow. Also had chicken salad and plain potato chips and 2 slices of bread. I made my nephew a bowl of cinnamon toast crunch cereal and had about two spoons of it before giving his bowl, yeah im partial petty lol. And I had a smoothie with a lemon, orange, banana, grapes, almond milk, tumeric and cayenne. This morning I put a cut up orange in my container with water to make citrus water and even ate some orange slices around noon out of it. Been an interesting day. Especially when i rebuked the mac and cheese i saw in the fridge. Shows I am making progress. Can't wait til tomorrow. Be safe, reach for your goals, and watch the news on the hurricane. Love you guys and thanks for sticking around. Please be safe!

Day 222 Part B

So, it's getting close to bedtime. I almost fucked up today. I had realized i could make chicken salad with the chicken, mayo and relist, had two slices of bread an hour apart with it, regular potato chips (plain, not flavored) and I'm about to drink some citrus water. I feel Im getting there. No sweets at all today, and for that I'm proud of myself. Look forward to tomorrow. So be safe, reach for your goals, and be careful out here.

Day 222 Part A

Let me say this has been a productive morning. May not have been all happy and smiles type of morning but productive. Got my ass up and did the following:

4004 steps (about 1.77 miles)
208 calories burned
100 jumping jacks for warm up
100 squats
70 crunches
50 push ups

My goal is to do the One Punch Man workout, working my way up to 100 reps of squats, crunches, and push ups every other day, and 4000 steps everyday. All of this until my bday. I will put my weight up either tonight or tomorrow. I talked to my potential bf and told my best friend that my goal is to be 220 by my bday. However, to make up for any "fuck ups" i put on my calendar to be between 235 and 225 minimum, which is hella doable, given I stick to my stuff. I also had a smoothie full of almond milk, grapes, an orange, part of a banana, cuts of pineapple, and pinches of tumeric and cayenne pepper. Just finished drinking it all and feel astatic. I also washed my hair. About to apply for a overnight counselor job. Looking forward to this month. Til next post!!!

Day 220 and 221

Exercised yesterday and burned 208 or so calories and walked 3575 steps on Samsung Health. I didn't do it today but definitely plan to do it tomorrow. Waiting on my potential bf to call me otherwise I'll text my best friend and look up some stuffs. You know, watch Naruto Shippuden and stuffs. Doing my best to keep a routine.

Did I mention I made alfredo from scratch today? Has been a while. Well, off to the night. Be safe, reach for your goals, and work hard for what you want.

Day 213, 214, 215, 216, 217, 218, and 219

So it's becoming a bit rough these past few days. My gym free trial ended and I feel the need to get a third job while figuring out if my second job will give me a client for overnight...I'll ask later. Looking at an overnight job from another company that i technically already applied to. Gots to call them. Gots to figure out medical assistant for winter or for 2018.

Also, been watching Arrow. Technically after two more episodes I'll be at the beginning of season 4. Yay. I need to do my 6000 steps this evening around 6 and do it from now on along with no more eating after 8 and try to be in bed by 1 am. I'm trying. Might do a free trial at another gym company but we'll see. I like the 24 hour gold gym but based on franchise, if I go to that one I'll only be able to go to 3 instead of all 12 in the area, which is so fucking stupid to me, but what you gonna do.

For those in Texas reading this, and all the homeless out there, stay strong. My poetry group is gonna send supplies to aid with the Texas crisis and in teh next week or so I hope to pass out food to homeless in my hometown. Come Katsucon I wanna bring stuff for people at National Harbor. It's a ways to go but I want to help as much as I can when I'm away from home, give ppl hope, you know.

Well, I feel a little better after almost a week of no posting. I need to stop this. Be safe, reach for your goals, and don't give up hope.

Days 207, 208, 209, 210, 211, and 212

So, the reason I haven't been blogging up to this point is that my schedule is kinda blah lol. I know i should just blog in the morning but the computer is slow. ANYWHO...

So me and my friend, long story way short, did a 7 day pass to Gold's Gym. I went back to 256 ish and yesterday was 253 last night. This morning I was like 252.8, so I'm quite excited. I plan to get a membership come next paycheck.

Usually our routine is check weight,  get on treadmill, get on other machines of choice, go to the sauna, then the hot tub, regular pool, shower, and then sleep. I love this fucking schedule.

Yesterday in particular I made it my goal to burn 500 calories, do some muscle work, and then finish off with pool and sauna. I burned 508 calories, walked 2.75 miles, and worked out my chest and arms. Even though my eating is blah and I'm still working on it, I don't eat anything when I get home, and this morning I ate bran with cranberries, love it.

Goals: by bday in october weigh 220, then by Nekocon in November weigh 210, by december weigh 200 for the first of the year new year's resolution pic...and then by katsucon in february I really am determined to be 180 ish. Plan to cosplay Fu from Naruto, Jake from Adventure Time, Garnet, possibly pokemon butterfree or pokemon trainer Iris, and Annie the Chicken Queen who is the mascot of Popeye's chicken...a lot I know.

Until morrow. Be safe, reach for your goals, and stay hydrated.

Day 203, 204, 205, and 206

Hello. So i feel bad that i haven't fully been on my fruit and veggie diet and will start completely on Sunday. A couple things have happened this week. First I mentioned coming back from Otakon, which was the SHIT!! Then I enjoyed my company. Came back to work on Tuesday, and I gets paid on Monday.

The past few days we have been eating home cooked food and I've enjoyed it, but really have goals to get to 220 minimum by my birthday, 210 by Nekocon (if I do/don't go) and 200 by the new year. I may get to go the gym later thanks to my friend's new membership, but if not, I did go outside and do 50 jumping jacks before running errands.

Also, while at Otakon, I had a heart to heart talk with one of my friends we hung out with at the con. On an honest note, dude is pretty heavy, sounded stern, doesn't drink a lot (which I respect) and is a virgin like me. After talking to him on Saturday while waiting for our people, I told myself I could see myself with him. He has a plan for his life, he's already in his field, wants to get his doctorate and of course likes anime. I liked him immediately. Come to find out, last night while talking on the phone, he agrees with just about everything I want to do and how I feel about life. That made me so excited last night...the only thing is he is out of state. We talked about it on messenger which made me call in the first place, but as I told my best friend, I don't really want looks, age, and location the reason I didn't find happiness...plus he thinks I'm pretty...which makes me happy as a tomboy.

I think this may be it. Now I'm gonna work hard to be the best I can be. Til morrow people, be safe, reach for your goals, and stay mother fucking hydrated!!!! This heat is not a game out here.

Day 202

Pretty much rested today and put up picks on facebook, hopefully I can put up one tomorrow evening. I also start working out and going back to my regimen tomorrow. New goal is to be 200 by my birthday and be ready for Nekocon in November. Well, here's to bedtime. Be safe, reach for your goals, and good night!

Day 197, 198, 199, 200, and 201

So I had no time to get back on and blog and I'm so so sorry. This weekend was Otakon and it was a blast!! More on it tomorrow. I weight 242.2 on Friday morning and ain't no telling how much I weigh now. I did so much walking and even exercised at the hotel gym yesterday morning. It was fun nonetheless. More on it tomorrow. Be safe, reach for your goals, and good night!!

Day 196 Part C

Played Kingdom Hearts Birth By Sleep and I finished one part and couldn't finish the other...yeah it's vague sounding but that's how I'm gonna explain it. Got my nephew and myself ready for bed and I await tomorrow's crazy adventures. Be safe, reach for your goals, and good night!

Day 196 Part B

So I didn't go to work today, but I did get a nice check...which I can't cash til tomorrow. Also, my interview went well, but due to my lack of availability he couldn't hire me. I was so irritated by that today. To make myself feel better, I got food from the church, passed some out, got irritated I couldn't deposit my money order through the atm, and so I headed home. I really wanted to eat something bad, but I knew I have two days left, so I decided to make that spaghetti sauce I made yesterday. Only difference is I added more seasonings. Pretty good, feel a little bit better. About to play Kingdom Hearts BBS and I might do my paper to get it out the way. Otherwise, I'll do it later and watch Arrow. Until next post...

Day 196 Part A

Got up this morning and did a good small jog outside. Pretty decent. Had a bottle of water and my smoothie my sister made yesterday with greens. About to do so early homework, and then I'll play BBS...finally found it last night. Waiting on my manager to see if I do go to work...but in case I don't, I still gots me an interview at 3:30. Might also hand out food and clothes. Until next post!!

Day 195

In a bit of a hurry so let me speed up my day...


weighed 247.4 this morning...hell yell...manager had some trouble yesterday and so I didn't have to go to work today...nor my second job...again...wanted to play Kingdom Hearts BBS but couldn't find it...had time to lay down and listen to my favorite theme from Howls Moving Castle as well as the theme from Princess Mononoke...tried on so many clothes today...ate vegetables today and so many snap peas, but still no bread, starch, or meat. I gave food to two homeless people today, straightened up my dresser a bit...and watched food porn...meaning I am making Cream Buns on Thursday night if I have the ingredients and will post a pic. I have 4 freaking days. I need to work out in the morning and get to the office early to try and do some early homework. For now, I'm happy, it's raining so so beautifully outside, and I'm ready for bed. Be safe, reach for your goals, and good night!

Day 194 Part B

Hello. I am tired, I just braided and twisted my hair with water and mango butter while watching a motivation video and finished off with Bella Curls leave in conditioner. Feels great. Finished homework by the skin of my teeth. Also did about 10 "girl" push ups. Naw, let's not call them that, let's call them easy push ups...yeah. I did about 10 easy push ups with my arms getting used to proper form (elbows straight, not out). Feels great to hit the chest area. Speaking of which...

...I can't remember if I posted this but yesterday while out at the mall, my bf pressured for me to get measured. I went from a 46 G to a 42 G. Quite excited. Now if I can go down a cup size, we be in business, thus I'm pushing for push ups lol. Well, bout to get this 6-7 hour sleep before I start these jobs. Otakon is this week...gotta work hard, do my homework extra early and I weigh myself in the morning. Since I actually ate veggies this weekend, i don't believe I should have gained anything, but either way, I ate vegetables and had fruits so as long as I didn't go over 251 I think I can manage the rest of this week...

Be safe, reach for your goals, and good night!!

Day 194 Part A

Hello ppl. Let me talk about what's happen so far today...

Made breakfast for everyone...not bad for someone who can't eat any of it, and my 9 year old niece and 3 year old nephew loved it. Mom loved it, and my dad just literally got what was left and he seemed satisfied. Used olive oil and citrus pepper and tumeric seasoning to season and cook the hotdogs in the over and used gouda cheese and olive oil and citrus pepper to do the toast...and of course made some boiled eggs.

Tried to exercise. Did my warm up, did my stretch, but thanks to these tires on my car, my dad stopped me in the middle my work out to go refill them, one of them i had put air in 30 minutes prior.

Irritated by the cayenne pill in my stomach I decided to make my smoothie...that went well, less than what I intended to make. However, my mom told me, while helping her in her room, that sauce needed to be made for the spaghetti since, as she says, "people in this house eat more sauce than actual spaghetti." Clearly not me, as I'm not eating pasta nor meat, so I said I'll do it. Got to eat a tomato with lemon pepper and I cut up a lot of good stuff, cut up tomatoes, put in some seasonings, let it all boiled for over I guess half an hour as I was putting the stuff in, and that shit came out awesome. Thinking of making this for the homeless. I tasted it before I put it in the pasta. Pretty good for  my first time making it from scratch and it contained tomatoes and all vegetables.

Now it's time for homework and I'll workout later...see ya.

Day 192 and 193

Forgive me for not posting yesterday. When I was about to, the movie was about to start. Got a lot to say, but Im going to try and condense it.

Yesterday morning I weighed 249.2 pounds. Wish I could express the excitement I want to express in this blog but I'm a bit tired lol. Yesterday we saw Sailor Moon artwork at a place called Charm School Icecream Parlor (I assume this is the name) and it was quite nice. I had peppermint tea. Afterwards went to a jazz and bar place in which my sister and best friend wanted me to eat, so I settled for a tomato slice (technically a fruit) and had water and some alcohol the rest of the night.

Fast forward to today. I went to the Hello Kitty truck again. This time I just got a mug. I did have orange juice smoothie thing from the Star Bucks fridge and the last of my Naked Juice this morning for my "breakfast." I will say, once we got to FireBirds (restaurant) I did want to eat so thinking about less calories and stuff that could be in my smoothie, I got the Mixed Greens salad with plain lettuce, tomatoes, Jicama (vegetable), pecans (part of the fruit family) and a citrus lime vinaigrette. It was the best non meat salad I ever had. My friend insisted on me for a freaking 3 minutes to have the shrimp taco. After beating me down, I had the taco without the shrimp, but just teh mango pieces, lettuce, and sour cream. It was good...and I had cucumber vodka.

It occurred to me today that I have been, more or less, vegan. I just haven't had any meat substitute products. But the rest of this week, I believe I'll stick to my fruit stuffs and partial veggie drinks.

It's been very exciting and I didn't get to share all my awesome weekend details (saw Girl's Trip and Despicable Me 3 for a second time), but I enjoyed my self. Have a good night!!

Day 191

So this morning I had no time to exercise, but it's okay. I stuck to my liquid like a boss. Drunk some water and finished my homework this afternoon. Finished at work and came home...more or less (not gonna get into it). As of midnight, I'm completely free of my retail job. Yeah. I feel so free. Celebrated my sister's birthday today. I actually was not tempted to eat cake. People need to do this juicing thing for real. I love smelling stuff, but I'm not tempted to eat. That makes me so happy that I'm in control. I wonder if this would be an alternative for those who are anorexic??? I think I might research that. Getting in calories but not really eating solid foods, but still getting in nutrients. Slow process back to health. I really need to research that. Anyone can message  me if they have info about anorexia. Anorexia is really needs a whole post to itself in the future...

On the other hand, gonna drink some more of this water and weigh myself in the morning. So excited, so happy. My car is gonna get checked by my cousin next week before Otakon, so I'll be safe on my way to DC. Man, it's just great. In case anyone is bored this Thursday night, look up the Purple Mattress Protector commercial with the sasquatch family, it's hilarious and has me rolling. Well, off to bed then. Be safe, reach for your goals, and good night!!

Day 190

Tried in clothes today and pretty excited to have my final line up for otakon: superman, seidara, and garnet. Cant wait to weigh myself Friday. So excited. Today was also my last working day of my retail job. FINALLY!! And i have an interview next week for a cookie place. Money and school and cons and family and weight loss. Be safe, reach for your goals, and good night.

Day 189

Hello. Today was an okay day.  My computer acted up at home but was in its best behavior at work, had to skip exercising today due to time, atill looking for an evening job, and had a good day at work. Im happy...cant wait til otakon though. Also after i blog i gets to go to bed early. Need that awesomw 8 hours. Be safe, reach for your goals, and good night.

Day 188

This morning I woke up. Got out the bed, went to the bathroom, went back to my room, stretched, took off my clothes, got on that scale...AND SAW GLORIOUS 252.4!!!!! I gots 11 more days til otakon and everything is looking great. Next Monday I'll buy stuff for Garnet's cosplay. I think since my bf going, I might skip on kiki and do luffy instead. I can go buy shorts and a nice red shirt with a straw hat from dollar tree. 3 cosplays, got some dresses im gonna fit into, and I'm just feeling so fantastic. Haven't messed up yet. Hope you all are doing great out there and continue to reach for greater things!! Love ya, thanks for sticking with me this long, and let's continue the journey!! GN!!

Day 187 Part B

Finally finished homework. Listening to DJ Okawari...I think I'm going to have to buy his stuff. I love it. Listening to the album Kaleidoscope on youtube now from where I guess I left off a week or so ago. Going to go to sleep soon and try to exercise in the morning before heading to the office. Need to drink a bottle of water with a fish oil pill and then I'm done for the night.

I'm really content i finished everything. Finally put mattress cover on bed, did my office papers, completed 3 days...3 DAYS OF JUICING!!!!! I weight myself when I wake up. Oh yeah, I bought a sort of dark blue color dye dress for kiki's delivery service cosplay. Need a wooden broom and red shoes. We will see how it looks next monday...my goal is to wear a 1x to Otakon and the dress is a 2x, so either way I'm going to be able to wear it. Also, found the leggings I need for garnet at Torrid. I will get them next Monday...or this Friday coming up after I weigh myself. 2 more days of my retail job.

I think that's it for now. Til morning...well later on this morning lol. Be safe and good nite! Stay strong!

Day 187 Part A

I feel so awesome right now. I have homework to do so this will be a quick post. I had work this morning and so i decided to do a mini workout when I got home. I did 100 jumping jacks broken into 25 reps. Decided not to do burpees and mountain climbers since my arm was bothering me. But either way, at least I did something active. I made my smoothie out of blueberries (some of which I ate in the car from falling out the bag while driving), frozen bananas, grapes, and some bits of ginger I bought. Tangy. Can't wait to weigh myself tomorrow. I know I didn't mark a weight at the beginning, but as long as I'm under 260, I know I didn't do too bad before this juicing started. On to homework, toodles.

Day 186

So today was a pretty decent day, washed clothes, made bags for the homeless, passed out bags to the homeless, received hugs, may have a job with a cookie company soon, exercised today, and had my fruit smoothies today. It is also Day 2. Had no problems. Can't wait to weigh myself on Monday morning. Also, in my smoothies I put whatever fruit I buy. Today I had my pineapple, orange, and grape smoothie with milk I made from yesterday, but this evening I used banana, grapes, and blueberries and almond milk. I'm happy. I take a vitamin and a niacin with my smoothie after my workout and a fish oil at night. So far so good. Also this is what I did for my workout:

jogged for a few minutes for a warm up
25 jumping jacks
4 burpees (beginner)
16 mountain climber reps
all x4

Pretty rough once you get into the burpees. I was tired but very happy. Until tomorrow...

Day 182, 183, 184, and 185

Day 1 of juice fast

So I have two weeks til otakon and my brother gave me a new regimen that is kicking my butt hard...so worth the sweat.

20 seconds jumping jacks
20 seconds burpees
20 seconds mountain climbers
x4 is the goal but it was hard today

Exactly what I needed

Also, lot has happened this week, will update tomorrow as well as talk about what's in the juice. Getting ready to buy more fruit. Be safe and good night.

Day 181 Part B

So its been an interesting day. Pretty tired. Cousin came over, didn't have to go to my second job. Got paid today, been pretty calm. Gonna head to bed and get in my 8 hours I have been needed to get in. More about life tomorrow. Stay hydrated!!!!!

Day 179, 180, and 181 Part A

So it's the middle of the night. I did 120 jumping jacks, drunk water, finished homework, had my sigma alpha pi meeting, and washed my hair...and finally got a chance to scrub my feet.

I realize that my feet get rough pretty quickly. Usually a soak does fine for most people feet, but I have to literally scrub...not everyday, but once or twice a month, maybe while letting your conditioner set or you watching a movie, give some attention to your damn feet. They will thank you later. I have some scrub i bought from work last year and it is also an oil. It is the best evar. I'll post what it is later.

It looks like if I do what I'm suppose to, Otakon should be a breeze. Also, I'm looking at Deidara, Superman, and Garnet...for realz this time.

Oh crap, it's 3:16am, time for bed, til later.

Day 178 Part B

I'm tired, but happy. I did 50 jumping jacks, 30 squats, and 10 push ups (4 standard way, 6 on step). Drunk my liquid drink...you know the one with the apple cider in it, and I'm feeling so tired but so awesome. Can't wait to weight myself in the morning. Good night people and be safe!!

Day 177 and 178 Part A

So I got out of hand and weighed 160.2 or so yesterday. Today I weighed 259.8. Last night when I finished my errands I ate fruit pops, so I know it's time to get back to my juices and smoothies. Today I made the pic below. It consists of pineapple, banana, grapes, bit of turmeric, bit of cayenne pepper, and a splash of water and almond milk.

Also, yesterday when I was getting something to eat, I hear on the radio that we lost Chester of Linkin Park. I was shocked. He committed suicide yesterday in the morning. We are losing all the people to the issues of this world and we need to be helping one another. I find it hurtful that people like Chester and Robin Williams loved helping others with their talents, but when they were by themselves, they needed help for them. Listen to Linking Park at work and will probably for the rest of the day with the exception of being at my retail job. If you don't know the group, I suggest you get on youtube and look up Hybrid Theory, it was the first album I heard in my teenage years. Bought it yesterday. If you are depressed or feeling down or been abused, talk to someone, hell send me messages so we can talk. I'm not certified or licensed in my field yet, but talking makes me feel better, and so does listening to my favorite music. R.I.P. Chester.

Day 176

So last night I worked out. Went well. Today, I had the most awesome day. Gave proof I had a driving course, won stuff from 92.1 FM here in richmond, got some healthy food info, bought chicken wings, mom and sis came back from vacation today, passed on my paper I had to turn in Sunday night, and bought me an exercise bra from torrid. I like it, does a partial zip in the front. Also, bought some rings.

Also, I weighed myself this morning and I thought I was 265. I was 259. Glad to know I will never go over 260 again. Happy. Gonna exercise in the next hour. Jog around the driveway a few times and aim for 100 jumping jacks, 25 squats,, and bottles of water, along with a niacin, hair, skin, and nail vitamin, apple cider vinegar, and a cayenne pill. After all that, a nice ass shower.

Blogging in the am. Good night and be safe.

Day 175

So i didn't fast today ( I did say you guys could yell at me) but in an hour I will be exercising. I'm excited to FINALLY get back on track. I think I'll just jog tonight for about 8 or so minutes to get my body back in gear and do it every night until I can eventually reach a mile...my left arm and left side of my neck have been hurting so no push ups for now, I may stick to 100 jumping jacks for a while as well. I'm happy. Til morrow.

Day 170, 171, 172, 173, and 174

So, I thought I could fast, but apparently I could not, so I have an idea...and I welcome anyone to yell at me if I don't do this following my next post...

I am an administrative Assistant and have to work in teh morning, so with the exception of tomorrow, I thought I would fast all day tomorrow, maybe drink some veggie juices, and then for the rest of the week exercise in the early morning, meaning go to bed around midnight to get 7 or more hours of sleep. I really want to get another 20 pounds off but keep fucking lacking. Also, really falling behind on these posts and that is very unlike me.

Also, I definitely need to go to the store and gets me 2 exercise bras and a battery for my scale. Need to get down to the 240s.

Oh yeah, did my 2 week notice today, but wanted to get permanent evening hours on tuesday and wednesday. We shall see how it goes. Be safe out there, and HYDRATE!!!!!

Day 166, 167, 168, and 169.

So, i am behind, I know, and I have not been exercising.

Not sure if I mentioned this, but instead of working toward the jail job, I got an Administrative Assistant job under a Licensed Social Worker, and I love it. Also, my brother that made parole was allowed to come home Tuesday morning. I'm happy for all that so far...

...I'm sick of my retail job, so damn sick that I decided I would either cut the hours or leave after putting in a two week notice. Being the adult I am, i put in for a schedule request...it got denied. So I decided that's it, it's over. I don't mind 3 jobs, but I'm going to have a free weekend and be able to get some sleep and be able to do homework and my homeless project. Luckily while at my admin assist job I went to office depot and talked to a friend and manager about working there, and I'm applying TONIGHT!!! I asked about working tuesday and wednesday and night and it sounded good to the manager.

It's a lot of info, but yeah, I need to start exercising soon. Until later. Good night and be safe!!!

Day 161, 162, 163, 164, and 165

So I know I'm behind, lost a bit of motivation to work out, and straight got the lowest assignment on any assignment since I started my masters program, but I have had a lot of positives this week.
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For one, I got a job as a Administrative Assistant for a Licensed Social Worker at the building my mom works at. I'm super freaking excited. Next, I can put in my two weeks, probably tomorrow, for my retail job. Also, me and one of the best friends went to see Spider Man Homecoming (which was great) and my other best friend and I did driving school course today and passed. Went shopping for a dress for her and shopped at a new nerd place called Box Lunch. Great day so far.

Need to do a short paper and then I should exercise, but my dad celebrated his 70th bday and I been eating blah the past few days. I would really, REALLY, like to get back to eating clean and dropping a pound a day.

Hope every else's day is okay. Also, before I forget, why should virgin men be a negative thing????

Day 156, 157, 158, 159, and 160

Hello citizens. This has been a week.

Thursday I had a oil change, cousin found metal pieces in oil...that caused a panic issue.

Took car to another mechanic who said my oil should be okay and also did transmission flush so I could drive my own car up safely, which became $100...

I spent $100 since my dad wouldn't let me take the nissan...which i only asked bc i was worried about metal coming out my oil change...

Didn't leave for the con til freaking 3:30pm

But once I got to the con...it was heaven. If you went to blerdcon, it was all that and a bag of chips. Majority of the people were black, but there were a good number of latinos, hispanics, asians, and a good handful of caucasians. Everyone was respectful, there were no complaints, hell i don't even think we had security. Everyone was well behaved...oh it was just lovely...and I know I'm lazy, but I'll post more pics of me later. Twas worth the money and i'm damn sure going back next year!

Day 154 and 155

So mother nature picked a fine time for me to hit allergy season. That post nasal drip shit happened again and eventually messed up my throat. However, it's not too bad and I should be okay for the convention. I weighed myself this morning as 255. Since I ate near midnight, can't really sleep yet. However, since my nephew JUST went to sleep, I think i'll work out at 2am (you know, get my metabolism going) so i can be in bed at 3. Need to drink like 3 bottles of water, already took sinus meds, and see what homework all needs to be done for this week, because I'm not doing it while at the con. 

I hope to make half a mile in 6 minutes. That means jogging at a simple pace and just breathing. 

Lastly, I came upon a new anime last night when I got home. Kiss him, not me is stupid hilarious and funny and bought me back to my Ouran high school (fav anime btw) and chobits. Those high school days...but anyway, check it out. Only saw 1 episode and gonna watch the rest come the weekend during down town. If any of you are going to blerdcon, hit me up on my tumblr (https://www.tumblr.com/blog/kawastrong/). Wish me luck on exercise and good night!!

Day 153 Part B

If someone could like limit my period to 5 days, I'd be much happy about it...moving on to my day, I found out I can be done paying off my credit card by the end of the summer, which is awesome. Also, pushing forward watching Naruto Shippuden and about to exercise at 12:30. Gonna jog, do jump squats (maybe in box form), try to do some sit ups, and 100 jumping jacks. Gonna finish up some youtube vids, see about connecting with people to learn spanish in less than a month (goals) and then do some documentation for work and call it a night. So if I don't message back, til next post...

Day 152 and 153 Part A

Sooo, yesterday i almost didn't work out. But I told myself to get off my ass and I went outside. I did an actual jog around the driveway. My time was 7:29 and I jogged 0.32 of a mile. I'm static because after pushing through the 3 minute time, my body was accustomed to the jog and it made me feel like I could jog for another hour...clearly could not...but the feeling is amazing. Can't wait to do it today...shit I might do it when me and my mom come back from downtown. I could feel my buns. It was awesome.

I also did 10 regular squats, 30 jump squats, 100 jumping jacks, and now that i now the proper way to do a push up (did 6 on steps i think, i could feel my chest), I'm easing myself on the steps to do them. It was just exciting. Well gotta go...will post when i get back.

P.S. Yesterday i was 258, i'm now 257.

Day 151 Part B

Trying to watch Mickey and the Three Musketeers so I can continue Dream Drop Distance. While waiting for the movie to load in between times, listening to John Oliver and defending myself from my nephew messing with my moles. 3 year olds...

Have a good night!! BTW, gonna try one more time to fast from sunday to Friday morning...Wish me luck!

Day 150 and 151 Part A

So listen to this bullshit. I finally planned today to go outside and time myself for whatever amount of time I run/jog. Starting with taking my mom out, my review mirror fell off, gotta get glue for that shit. Then, I go out front, do a warm up fast run around the yard so I can stretch my legs. I hear the neighbor's dog across the street barking. I look over, he not in the backyard. I'm looking like "FUCK" why the hell is he loose. My sister and brother in law telling me that mom said the dog is old, fuck that I'm not taking no chances on that shit. So I angrily jog in the backyard, which is not flat nor applicable to how I want to do my run. How is it that when I want to do something, good for me, especially if it helps me get this job I want, that shit blows up in my face. Either I run in the backyard or take a chance catching rabies. I don't know our neighbors like that and am not putting my health in danger like that.

On to a sort of positive (sorry I had to vent that out), I ran 0.14 of a mile in 2:36. Now, mind you, I only need to do 0.5 miles in 6.5 minutes or less. I might try again later after I go to Auto Zone to see about this glue. Friday not coming quick enough.

Day 149

Watching John Oliver's video on Puerto Rico. It's rough. The U.S. is rough. On my side of life, I'm about to exercise at 12:30am. 200 jumping jacks, 100 squats, and I believe 40 actual push ups. We shall see. Also, I have not made my 8 bottles of water but have definitely made 5 or 6 a day, which I'm proud of and weighed at 256.2 last I checked. And, I start the motivational exercise tomorrow morning to see how I fair...if that's the right wording. Wish me luck!

Did I mention my hair is awesome. So fluffy and thick. Can't wait to see how long it gets by my bday. Until next post, be safe, and good night!!

Day 148 Part B

So gonna exercise at 4am, do about 100 jumping jacks or 100 squats...if I can't find my exercise bra. Drink 3 more bottles of water, do my homework, and i'll be done. Here's to getting it together. I will however, not weigh myself until friday morning. Want to get 8 bottles in before midnight tomorrow. Toodles!!

Day 146, 147, and 148 Part A

So...a few things have happened. For one, I have been given the opportunity to do an agility test for a chance at a job. I have to be able to do push ups, sit ups, and run a certain distance. That's all fine and dandy, as I can use it as motivation for training. Afterwards, after an interview, I will found out if I get the job.

I told my family and there was not as much excitement as I wanted. You'd think it's like I'm working for 7.25 an hour. I just would like for people to be damn happy for me. Call me a baby, but it hurts my feelings. When my dad gets home, I'll tell him.

Another thing, I blew the fasting deal. It usually takes me 3 days to prepare for it. I did, however, decided to drink 8 bottles of water a day. So far have had 3 bottles and on my 4th. I know i can make the water intake. Also, taking niacin and b6 and b12 with chromium in the morning. Going to try to exercise twice a day. During the day for the motivation job training and at night for the 200 jumping jacks...yes i need to do 200. I've been behind on my shit.

I've decided that i'll stick with Deidara and add a cosplay once I get to Blerdcon. Also, my period is getting on my damn nerve. When I weighed myself this morning, just to see how much I've messed up, the scale couldn't make up it's mine between 255 and 259. Well then...till I post again tonight...

Day 144 and 145

So it's been rough these pass few days. Yesterday I took a break and today I think I'll take a break again, but I'm going to fast until the con. Water, apple cider, and of course lemon juice. Since I'm just going to run with my period this week, I figure fasting won't be too bad. Love you guys, HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, and be safe!!

P.S. Pray I get a job this week. Did an assessment for HCA yesterday and I hope I get in. As one of my friends said, CLAIM IT!! Good night!!