Days 1189 to 1197

Hi. So, I got my life back together, for the most part. 

Today I weighed in at 265.6, meaning PICTURE!!!!

I will post my updated workout regimen later. Stay strong, stay motivated, and here's to my body becoming a fucking machine, and to me hopefully passing the HESI test. 

Day 1188

Hi. Still trying to get the hang of this new blogger thing. I wanna lay back down for half an hour before work so just know I'm at 270.9, so I took a pic today and it overall went well today. This I had two egg and cheese bagels made by my coworker and bread seems quite fulfilling to me, so gonna have it again tomorrow with maybe oatmeal or yogurt. Anywho, more on it tomorrow and how great it's going with HESI practice. Here's to becoming a monster machine of a body. 

Days 1184-1187

Hi. 

So apparently the interface of blogger has corrected the time and so if I post late, it's actually not the next day, so this threw me off lol. I used to have to 3am my time to write for the previous day, but now at midnight, it changes, who knew. 

Anywho. At 272. In the morning hope to be at 271. I'll just post my notes here and be on my way. I redid my workout and will post on it tomorrow. Here's to having my body be a fucking machine!! Be safe, wear your mask, shower or take a bath everyday, and get some rest. Good night!!

Days 1104-1183

Hi, been a while...like majority of the summer. Not gonna sugar coat this, COVID fucked up my whole year. I was going to the gym, hit the 230s, was so close to hitting some small goals, and boom, gyms closed and the kids I work with got covid, so a lot of the place where I work was switched around...in the end, I got back to 275.3, but here we are. 

Today is day 1. I went to the gym and ate correct using intermittent fasting and I'll be posting pics every 10 pounds lost. Wanna stick to wraps, oatmeal and yogurt, and tofu for my wraps. 

Just know, I have cried and panicked and suffered, known people to die from covid, can't plan life in advance and so we all have to take everything 1 day at a time until people can get their shit together so we can get rid of the virus. Please wear masks, social distance, stay hydrated, and make goals, because that's the only thing keeping me sane...that and my family and awesome boyfriend. Get rest. 

1082 - 1103

Hi.

So, covid and going to the Hello Kitty Truck messed me up. Simply put, I had to work hard to get the motivation to get it together and I finally exercised today.

Walk and quick jog: about 3 minutes

Squats 30

Leg Lifts 30

Glute Kicks 30 per leg

After workout meal: 2 bananas, 1 scoop super greens, 1/2 bottle water, 1/2 cup almond milk

I know I probably weigh 255+ so I'll add weight tomorrow. Goal is to maintain and I'll buy 15 kettlebells tomorrow. Here's to hoping for the best.

My goals:

240 do art
230 exercise bras and underwear and socks
220 miles morales, mando, buy stuff for bf birthday (which I'll explain later)
210 present pics, start cutting (food wise)
200 bumblebee
190 goku (shh, don't tell nobody)
180 hawkgirl

hope these keep me grounded for the next 30 days, bc its about to be brutal for this summer body

Days 1077 - 1081

Hi.

Been not doing what I'm supposed to for the last 2 days, but decided to work out today and so far so good. My biggest issue of course is food and I started wondering about the prospects of surgery. I don't want surgery, so if I can't get it together by summer, that may be an option. I really just need to get to 210 and I'll be set, but I've been having issues. Even right now I'm about to eat a cheese stick, but did bring my coconut popcicles, 3 water bottle, ginger boost drink, and 2 fruit cups, so I won't be having junk.

Other than this, I have an A in my class, I start bio next month, and I am good on that note. Looking into seeing if I can do Phlebotomy next year if corona is still taking over.

Gonna watch Black Lightening tonight. Please stay safe. If you so bored that you want to get out the house, find a temporary essential job so you can help others. This is the way. I have spoken. GN!!

Day 1076

Hi.

You know it's been like 3 years and I believe I need to update this damn thing. I'll work on that later. I weighed in at 244.8,  so now I can go back to using my glass jars to count the amount of weight I'm losing to hit 180. My goal is to now start back on cosplay stuff at 220 lbs and start cutting at the same time.

Watched Onward and Frozen II yesterday, I HIGHLY RECOMMEND!! Watch with family or buddies, they are good.

Between work pay and stimulus check I'll be buying that stuff from Amazon, popsicles from Kroger, and 2-3 backs of blue-lavender hair. After this week I will not be buying from Asian hair stores. As I stated earlier, I know not all Asians are racist. However, how the people have treated the Africans this past month has been disgusting and I want no part in that. I will do my best to order from African based hair places.

Speaking of doing positive things, I'll be giving masks to some people at my job. I'll probably put aside 8 for work. That leaves 2 for my friend's bday, 2 for me, and the rest to split between random homeless persons and my family members in the house (or whoever come in).

Been doing great on ASL, Spanish, and Japanese. Feeling happy on those. Bio next month will be lit. And of course the real fun begins at 220 lbs. Shopping at 200 lbs and again at 180. This is the way. I have spoken. Be safe, stay hydrated, protect yourself, and find something to pass the time. Good night!

Days 1074-1075

Hi.

Today I'm at 246.8. I'm fasting til im 228, then ima start cutting via vegan eating. I also did my mini workout. I forgot to mention last time I got a second job as a PRN direct care specialist. Bout to do a lot of manga reading and audio listening this week once I'm off. Gonna try and finish up kingdom hearts 3 dlc and kingdom hearts 358/2 days. Want to finish sekirou and Spiderman and start The world ends with you. Started a corona series where i'll be doing a poem and sudoku puzzle everyday and reading the poem on my social media for positivity of the day. Gonna start bio 141 so that I can apply for nursing in 2 months. Gonna order 1 last time from amazon for a while. Gonna order a book called Children of blood and bone by Tomi Adeyemi, bc I've been wanting it for a while. Gonna order almond oil for my hair so that the house can use my olive oil for cooking, which will save us from going out to get it. Lastly, and most importantly, buying about 16 cute cat face masks. I am debating buying an extra 16 and sending a few off as donations, but we shall see. I definitely can't do more than what I'm really doing now as an essential worker (Youth counselor) but I know someone will appreciate these masks if I do get extra.

That was a lot I know. But it's what I'm doing to keep myself sane during this pandemic. So, short term goal is to watch Frozen II tonight and possibly Onward. Watch Jon Solo on youtube. Long term goal, continue on Duolingo to perfect Spanish and Japanese, and watch Dr. Vicar on youtube for ASL. It is a lot. But, I'm being optimistic. Bc even though 2020 did a curve like a garbage can slipping in the rain, I'm still going to get the most out of being 30 years old and being that chick with the awesome background. So, I encourage you to find something to keep you not only motivated, but engaged and empowered. This is the way. I have spoken. Be safe and get some rest!!

Days 1061-1073

Hi.

So Corona has really been hitting hard around the world. As of recent, I've been irritated every day for something or other and a few days ago, I realized around 5pm that I would have been at the gym at that particular time. So, with some motivation from the exercise cosplay facebook group I'm on, I revamped space in my room to workout. I'll post pics below, you'll love it.

Today I also had no meat, and kept using liquids. I'm excited. I also got hired prn for another job, so so far so good. I also registered for bio 141, meaning after this class, I can apply for  nursing. YAY!

Gonna do some DS tonight at work and watch Black Lightening. Keep clean and stay safe. This is the way. I have spoken. Good night!!

Days 1041-1060

Hi. It's early in the morning but I have an issue and I need to catch yall up. 

It's currently a pandemic. I know yall know that. Gyms closed, jobs closed, schools closed, except retail and gas places, medical places, and all essential workers. I'm a youth counselor for a 24 hour facility, so that includes me. I took advantage of the virus by apply for a patient transport tech job for the college I want to work at. And taxes are done...so yay. 

Currently in the middle of trying to finish up my thesis part. Just coming to the idea that I don't need to "completely" finish it, but I would like to so I can get complete feedback. Issue is my thesis sounded very ignorant, in my opinion. I know what I want to express but if my colleagues are lost reading it from the very beginning, there's no point in progressing in the rest of the paper. 

So thought I put it here. 

My paper is on homelessness in the united states. My original thesis said that "the country's budget is affected by homelessness because the homeless are not stable and are vulnerable to illness and mental issues." What I mean is that the monies we put up for the homeless are going to the same tactics we use to try and continue our regular means of solving the problem, i.e., temporary sheltering, feeding programs. However, we need an altogether system. A place where they can lay their head, wake up and get help finding a place to work (even if temporary or less than part time), and find a place to live. That is what is needed. 

Therefore my thesis needs to read along the lines of "those who are homeless cannot get out of the cycle of homelessness because they are not stable and are vulnerable to illness and mental issues." My issue is, I need to figure out a way to either throw budgeting in her OR rewrite my outline and just take the 5 pages I have and use it to refill it in. 

The tactics we are currently using are not helping the homeless get out of homelessness quick enough and therefore they remain vulnerable to illness and mental issues. 

I will write some notes down and go back and rewrite some stuff. Thanks for coming to my Ted Talk, lol. Yall stay safe, stay clean, and stay inside as much as possible. 

Day 1040

Hi.

Today I hit 239.7. Quite exciting. Day light savings kinda killed me a bit last night at work but after taking a caffeine pill I should be okay for the night.

I really like that I incorporated the assisted pull up machine. It actually has four parts. So I did 10 assisted dips, 10 bicep pull ups, 5 standard pull ups and 5 wide pull ups. Last time I just used the wide part to do 10, this time I used the standard bar as well. All of this was done on 170lbs. I believe doing it this way will give me a better overall evening in strength and will be better for me in the long run. I realize that it gets hard with the last few reps, but I like this. Once I get comfortable with this, I'll take off 10 lbs. So hopefully in April that's a go. Yay.

Here are some pics. I wanna be accountable and keep this progress going. Also found some vegan stuffs on youtube that I'm excited about. I'll get into them once I go back to eating in about a week. Stay motivated people. This is the way. I have spoken.

Day 1039

Hi.

Today I weighed in at 240.7. So tomorrow I'm sure to hit 239. Yay. This fasting has been quite positive. Face is back to normal, I'm happy. Once I hit 228, I feel then I need to give myself about 4 day to reintegrate food. Might do frozen grapes and apples with pb powder to start, that way I'm getting my digestive track back in motion again, the right way, as opposed to just "eating eating" if you catch my meaning.

Although its my off day from gym I did hit my 4000 steps and look at a video my bf sent me about losing weight. Pretty informative. I also started watching The Witcher today, pretty intense stuff lol.

As said yesterday, I would post the pic of what I did yesterday and day before. Here.


With this, I bid you all good rest. Stay motivated. This is the way. I have spoken. Good night!

Day 1038

Hi.

So I weighed in at 241.7 today after getting my taxes done (fuck them taxes) and I look forward to more weight loss tomorrow. I also just realized I agreed to staying at work until 1pm...which is great for my paycheck, but I for real don't want to be here, but the way I see it, I can go home, do dishes, sweep and mop, fold clothes, play some ps4 and/or xbox, and slept a good 5 hours before going back to work.

I was gonna post a picture of what I did today, but I don't feel like going through my phone lol. I'll post tomorrow.

Feeling a bit low on energy so hopefully the sparkling water will help since it has b vitamins. Oh yeah, Walmart had sparkling water for 52 cent as opposed to my favorite sparking water for $1. Ha ha.

Well, let me finish my assignment then I can watch the Witcher. Almost finished episode 1 before leaving work, quite interesting first episode. Also looking up pics up smaller people I think I'll look like when I reach 180. Stay motivated. This is the way. I have spoken. Good night.

Days 1035-1037

Hi.

So I didn't post yesterday, but I started fasting. I was doing too much. Day 1 started me off at 247.9 and for day 2 I'm at 245. Day 3, tomorrow technically I will weigh in but I have to go somewhere after I get off work so it won't be until 1pm or so. If I drink another whole bottle of water before I get home I won't worry about it since my weight will be inaccurate. I might also adopt this approach to weighing every other day as opposed to every day. I can see some people saying it's not healthy, and while I don't REALLY believe it, it should become a natural thing to loosen up since my weight loss should come as a part of a natural transitioning lifestyle.

Meaning, if I'm doing right by my body, I should not have to weight EVERYDAY! With that, I made a slight change to my workout regimen. For Mon/Wed/Fri instead of doing 50 reps on the seated dip machine, I switch to the assisted pull up machine. Today I did 10 assisted wide pull ups, 10 assisted bicep lifts (that's what I'm calling them), and 10 assisted dips, all at 170 lbs. I feel good about this.
I also used a 20lb deadlift bar to do my 50 squats. Pretty decent day at gym. After a few weeks I'll work to modify my yoga cool down stretch.

That's about it. Had fruit pops earlier, flavored water, and sparkling water. The sparkling water is doing me justice. I love it. Zero calories with some vitamins. Find some to see if it helps you out. Looking forward to hitting the 220s, freaking finally. I'm going to aim for fasting until the end of the month...or at minimum at least until I hit 228-220 lbs, we'll see and also create a 800 - 100 calorie meal that will fill me up. So mostly vegetables. This is the way. I have spoken. Good night!

Days 1032-1034

Hi.

So new challenge for the month of march. I was able to do completely vegan for the month of January and I'm not doing any travelling for a bit, so I thought, why not do fasting. So yeah, I've been increasing in strength as far as the gym is concerned but not progressing with food, so why not start over. I've clearly done this before and announced to this blog multiple times but I seriously need a reboot and my boyfriend has motivated me with the assassin's creed outfit. Due to the coronavirus in china, where my outfit was coming from, the seller has given him chance to get a refund and just buy it cheaper later, which gives me chance to get down this month. I seriously believe once I hit the 220s i'll be ready to fully commit to doing what im supposed to. Also, I would love to be 100% vegan...like for life. My face is breaking out and I don't care for gas, so yes, I would love to go back to 100%.

I ot a lot riding on this, including my no-care surgery sister who is losing weight but does not care to join me and our other sister in encouraging each other to be our best selves, so screw her, i'll encourage myself. Here's to weight loss. This is the way. I have spoken.

BTW, if you are kinda blah on the coronavirus, just watch John Oliver's video on youtube. Wash your hands, be mindful of others, and be safe. Good night!

Day 1031

Hi.

Today I was able to reach 60lbs on deadlift and go for 10 reps. Quite exciting. And I biked for an estimated 2 minutes and my Samsung health app says I burned 28 estimated calories. Gonna research calorie burning on bikes, because if that's the case, i'll put more inferences on bike riding burning that many calories.

My calorie count was at about 1200 and im about to have 20 calorie seaweed, which was finally stocked at the DOLLAR TREE!!

Finished homework for the week and will start next week's assignments tomorrow night...possibly. Gonna aim for watching Treasure Planet, because I never watched it and am in love with homie since he is in a lot of amvs, Arrow, and watch some Jon Solo. If you haven't watched Jon Solo, you are missing ouuuuuuuut!! He's on youtube, tell him I sent you (name is animegirl17, i'm a subscriber lol).

I hope to be 244 point something tomorrow and then I know i'll be on track to do what im supposed to do. As I said, i'm doing wonders in the gym and progressing in body strength, just need to work on food habits. Working on it.

Well, time to get off. Stay motivated. This is the way. I have spoken.

Days 1027-1030

Hi.

I don't feel like going over...everything. Just know that I still have an A in my class, I'm progressing in working out and getting stronger even if I fail on the food side, I'm broke and hope my bank account says otherwise tomorrow, I may or may not be going to Galaxycon bc of said brokenness and not meeting my 230lbs goal for miles morales, and today was a partially shitty day.

Boyfriend is also not coming because of his own brokenness, so that's another thing.

Yeah I'm done for now. I'm going to get ready for bed in the next hour. My workout was great, but I had an estimated deficit of 150 calories, so yeah. Hoping for the best tomorrow. Trying to keep a goal of buying stuffs on wish. Stay motivated. This is the way. I have spoken.

Days 1024-1026

Hi.

Today, along with the last few days of my period have had me feeling like meh, sluggish, and of course, blah. Today however, I decided to not go to the gym and do all but one of my exercises at home. I did my walk for my warm up, my push ups, squats with 10lb kettlebell, and dips on my front porch steps. Greatest accomplishment, doing 30 push ups straight in 27 seconds without fatiguing, YEEEEEEAH BOOOOI!!!! I was so excited and proud of myself. I also weighed in today at 245.4.

Also, looked up motivation posts on tumblr, such a great idea if you EVAAAAR need the motivation.

As I am wide awake due to caffeine pills in the brain, but feeling quite sluggish in the body due to menstrual cycle, sleep meds, and possibly the potato wedges I just had, I need to see what homework I have tonight. Keep being motivated. This is the way. I have spoken.

Day 1022-1023

So at this moment I'm listening to my boyfriend babble on about his vehicle and his bills and stuff and after I asked about what he didn't get a cheaper vehicle, he says let me finish talking because I'm getting a headache, getting short and yelling in me in the process...and I get it, I get it, but that just irritates me and literally hurts my feelings. I listened, still listening to him talk while I'm doing this blog but I'm also not listening.

I don't know, I'm just ready for to knock off goals so I can get the ball rolling on my life.

Ugh, hit 246 and made pre made vegan alfredo food. Bad thing I've been doing is eating a piece here and there..but as long as I make under 246.4 i'll be satisfied...that's how much I actually weighed today.

So he finished talking and just apologized. I'm still irritated. Maybe my ass rambles too much. I don't know, I love the man and that's why I take the time to think my stuff through but I do get irritated.

Speaking of irritated, let me say what the fuck happened at the gym. In the parking lot I got out and forgot my phone arm band. Went to the passenger side to get it and knocked over someone's milk product drink and it got on my right leg and right foot. Now, it's fucking 30 something degrees. I was sooo pissed, I sat down inside the gym for 10 minutes to let them dry and then I went on to do my workout.

I'm really done for the night so I'm going to bed. Hopefully I do better tomorrow and do this damn homework assignment I don't want to do. Good night. PLEASE find some motivation. That is the way. I can't stress that enough. I have spoken. Good night!

Day 1021

Hello.

So, I'm pretty tired but had quite the day. Let me tell you...

Finally free from work for a few days and my coworker agreed to switch with me for when my boyfriend comes down at the end of the month, cool. I went to planned parenthood and had blood taken to test my thyroid, which I'll find out about in a week or less. I ate my one meal which filled me up and I was able to add some of my mom's pasta and veggie sauce mix she made for me and my dad to my already premade meal, cool. My cousin got me more beans and got me vegan chocolate cookies, OMG more on them later. Took an awesome nap! Exercised. And I weight 248. So 5 lbs down.

I'm also going to wash my hair and do jumbo lavender, blue, and green braids tomorrow after my sister trims my hair. Got 2 assignments then free for the week. Also, loss my train of thought...so yeah.

If I remember...oh yeah, wrote down what I want to cosplay come blerdcon and j1con. My main goals for the year besides nursing school and stuff. For blerdcon sailor reeses and yahiko. For j1, my long term cosplays: Fu, Major Kusanagi, and ling xiaoyu.

That's pretty much it. Gonna work on the Mandalorian soon and probably add that to the mix for blerdcon. As it's hot, probably won't have it on too long. Also, keeping up with motivation looking at pics online and my youngest sister is surpassing in weight loss, so gotta keep up. This is the way. I have spoken.