Hello Kingdom folk.
Im currently at my overnight job (I get off technically at 9am) and there is something that I been wanting to get off my chest. I feel I overcompensate in groups where I'm trying to fit in. Not saying my co-workers don't know I am friendly, but I do a lot of cleaning, of my own will, at my job, and I know it connects to me being a good worker but also, my coworkers can't say I am not a good person overall, if that makes sense. I feel left out and I guess when they are talking and I'm unaware of what they are talking about, it makes me feel blah (if that all makes sense).
On a positive note, my boyfriend and I have been sending regular messages back and forth as usual, you know, morning hon, have a good day at work babe, asking questions about each other still to pass the day, and mini goals and stuff to do for next year. I feel everything I'm thinking, he has already made a plan to do it. For example, I remember telling myself that I would kiss him at the convention in July for Blerdcon and he did it first, which threw me off. While at six flags, he bought up the idea to move in within the next 1.5 to 2 years before I even said anything. His reasoning: we are like 4 hours apart. A few days ago while sending messages he said he had something he wanted to say to me face to face next time we get together, which will be December if not November. I'm not getting my hopes up as it could be anything. Even though, if he proposes I would probably faint lol, but that's not what I think he's gonna say. I have two gifts to give to him and something I wanna say as well, but i'll get into it more later on.
Well, I am back in the 220s after falling off after being angry that my boyfriend couldn't come this weekend. I will have to get back on so I can be 200 by at LEAST the end of next month. Until next post!!
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