Days 1104-1183

Hi, been a while...like majority of the summer. Not gonna sugar coat this, COVID fucked up my whole year. I was going to the gym, hit the 230s, was so close to hitting some small goals, and boom, gyms closed and the kids I work with got covid, so a lot of the place where I work was switched around...in the end, I got back to 275.3, but here we are. 

Today is day 1. I went to the gym and ate correct using intermittent fasting and I'll be posting pics every 10 pounds lost. Wanna stick to wraps, oatmeal and yogurt, and tofu for my wraps. 

Just know, I have cried and panicked and suffered, known people to die from covid, can't plan life in advance and so we all have to take everything 1 day at a time until people can get their shit together so we can get rid of the virus. Please wear masks, social distance, stay hydrated, and make goals, because that's the only thing keeping me sane...that and my family and awesome boyfriend. Get rest. 

1082 - 1103

Hi.

So, covid and going to the Hello Kitty Truck messed me up. Simply put, I had to work hard to get the motivation to get it together and I finally exercised today.

Walk and quick jog: about 3 minutes

Squats 30

Leg Lifts 30

Glute Kicks 30 per leg

After workout meal: 2 bananas, 1 scoop super greens, 1/2 bottle water, 1/2 cup almond milk

I know I probably weigh 255+ so I'll add weight tomorrow. Goal is to maintain and I'll buy 15 kettlebells tomorrow. Here's to hoping for the best.

My goals:

240 do art
230 exercise bras and underwear and socks
220 miles morales, mando, buy stuff for bf birthday (which I'll explain later)
210 present pics, start cutting (food wise)
200 bumblebee
190 goku (shh, don't tell nobody)
180 hawkgirl

hope these keep me grounded for the next 30 days, bc its about to be brutal for this summer body

Days 1077 - 1081

Hi.

Been not doing what I'm supposed to for the last 2 days, but decided to work out today and so far so good. My biggest issue of course is food and I started wondering about the prospects of surgery. I don't want surgery, so if I can't get it together by summer, that may be an option. I really just need to get to 210 and I'll be set, but I've been having issues. Even right now I'm about to eat a cheese stick, but did bring my coconut popcicles, 3 water bottle, ginger boost drink, and 2 fruit cups, so I won't be having junk.

Other than this, I have an A in my class, I start bio next month, and I am good on that note. Looking into seeing if I can do Phlebotomy next year if corona is still taking over.

Gonna watch Black Lightening tonight. Please stay safe. If you so bored that you want to get out the house, find a temporary essential job so you can help others. This is the way. I have spoken. GN!!

Day 1076

Hi.

You know it's been like 3 years and I believe I need to update this damn thing. I'll work on that later. I weighed in at 244.8,  so now I can go back to using my glass jars to count the amount of weight I'm losing to hit 180. My goal is to now start back on cosplay stuff at 220 lbs and start cutting at the same time.

Watched Onward and Frozen II yesterday, I HIGHLY RECOMMEND!! Watch with family or buddies, they are good.

Between work pay and stimulus check I'll be buying that stuff from Amazon, popsicles from Kroger, and 2-3 backs of blue-lavender hair. After this week I will not be buying from Asian hair stores. As I stated earlier, I know not all Asians are racist. However, how the people have treated the Africans this past month has been disgusting and I want no part in that. I will do my best to order from African based hair places.

Speaking of doing positive things, I'll be giving masks to some people at my job. I'll probably put aside 8 for work. That leaves 2 for my friend's bday, 2 for me, and the rest to split between random homeless persons and my family members in the house (or whoever come in).

Been doing great on ASL, Spanish, and Japanese. Feeling happy on those. Bio next month will be lit. And of course the real fun begins at 220 lbs. Shopping at 200 lbs and again at 180. This is the way. I have spoken. Be safe, stay hydrated, protect yourself, and find something to pass the time. Good night!

Days 1074-1075

Hi.

Today I'm at 246.8. I'm fasting til im 228, then ima start cutting via vegan eating. I also did my mini workout. I forgot to mention last time I got a second job as a PRN direct care specialist. Bout to do a lot of manga reading and audio listening this week once I'm off. Gonna try and finish up kingdom hearts 3 dlc and kingdom hearts 358/2 days. Want to finish sekirou and Spiderman and start The world ends with you. Started a corona series where i'll be doing a poem and sudoku puzzle everyday and reading the poem on my social media for positivity of the day. Gonna start bio 141 so that I can apply for nursing in 2 months. Gonna order 1 last time from amazon for a while. Gonna order a book called Children of blood and bone by Tomi Adeyemi, bc I've been wanting it for a while. Gonna order almond oil for my hair so that the house can use my olive oil for cooking, which will save us from going out to get it. Lastly, and most importantly, buying about 16 cute cat face masks. I am debating buying an extra 16 and sending a few off as donations, but we shall see. I definitely can't do more than what I'm really doing now as an essential worker (Youth counselor) but I know someone will appreciate these masks if I do get extra.

That was a lot I know. But it's what I'm doing to keep myself sane during this pandemic. So, short term goal is to watch Frozen II tonight and possibly Onward. Watch Jon Solo on youtube. Long term goal, continue on Duolingo to perfect Spanish and Japanese, and watch Dr. Vicar on youtube for ASL. It is a lot. But, I'm being optimistic. Bc even though 2020 did a curve like a garbage can slipping in the rain, I'm still going to get the most out of being 30 years old and being that chick with the awesome background. So, I encourage you to find something to keep you not only motivated, but engaged and empowered. This is the way. I have spoken. Be safe and get some rest!!

Days 1061-1073

Hi.

So Corona has really been hitting hard around the world. As of recent, I've been irritated every day for something or other and a few days ago, I realized around 5pm that I would have been at the gym at that particular time. So, with some motivation from the exercise cosplay facebook group I'm on, I revamped space in my room to workout. I'll post pics below, you'll love it.

Today I also had no meat, and kept using liquids. I'm excited. I also got hired prn for another job, so so far so good. I also registered for bio 141, meaning after this class, I can apply for  nursing. YAY!

Gonna do some DS tonight at work and watch Black Lightening. Keep clean and stay safe. This is the way. I have spoken. Good night!!

Days 1041-1060

Hi. It's early in the morning but I have an issue and I need to catch yall up. 

It's currently a pandemic. I know yall know that. Gyms closed, jobs closed, schools closed, except retail and gas places, medical places, and all essential workers. I'm a youth counselor for a 24 hour facility, so that includes me. I took advantage of the virus by apply for a patient transport tech job for the college I want to work at. And taxes are done...so yay. 

Currently in the middle of trying to finish up my thesis part. Just coming to the idea that I don't need to "completely" finish it, but I would like to so I can get complete feedback. Issue is my thesis sounded very ignorant, in my opinion. I know what I want to express but if my colleagues are lost reading it from the very beginning, there's no point in progressing in the rest of the paper. 

So thought I put it here. 

My paper is on homelessness in the united states. My original thesis said that "the country's budget is affected by homelessness because the homeless are not stable and are vulnerable to illness and mental issues." What I mean is that the monies we put up for the homeless are going to the same tactics we use to try and continue our regular means of solving the problem, i.e., temporary sheltering, feeding programs. However, we need an altogether system. A place where they can lay their head, wake up and get help finding a place to work (even if temporary or less than part time), and find a place to live. That is what is needed. 

Therefore my thesis needs to read along the lines of "those who are homeless cannot get out of the cycle of homelessness because they are not stable and are vulnerable to illness and mental issues." My issue is, I need to figure out a way to either throw budgeting in her OR rewrite my outline and just take the 5 pages I have and use it to refill it in. 

The tactics we are currently using are not helping the homeless get out of homelessness quick enough and therefore they remain vulnerable to illness and mental issues. 

I will write some notes down and go back and rewrite some stuff. Thanks for coming to my Ted Talk, lol. Yall stay safe, stay clean, and stay inside as much as possible.